MRT

i'm always meeting
OLD FRIENDS
somewhere, some time.

today, i met jasmine,
my sec 3 and 4 classmate.

its great that she's doing fine,
hope you enjoy your job,
and may your DREAMS
come true!

-keep in touch-

SMU

-Singapore Management University
(for those who are keen to join SMU)

Admissions Requirements
for applicants under the
New 2006 Curriculum and
seeking admission in 2008:

Good passes
-in at least three H2 subjects,
one H1 subject and Project Work
-A good pass in General Paper (GP)
or Knowledge & Inquiry (KI) *
-A good pass in Mathematics
at H1 level or equivalent
(not required for students who are applying for Law)
A minimum of "S" grade in Mother Tongue Language

SAT I: Reasoning Test*
is optional
(but an added advantage
for those with strong scores;
guideline for strong SAT I scores:
> 1300 for old SAT format and
> 1900 for new SAT format)

Interview (for shortlisted candidates)

*Applicants for Bachelor of Laws
must obtain a B and above for GP or KI.

Students with a grade of C and below
must take the SAT I: Reasoning Test and
achieve the following requirement:
Old SAT Format - A minimum score of 700
for the verbal component
New SAT Format - A minimum combined score
of 1400 for both Critical Reading and Writing Components

NAFA

-Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts

happened to stumble on
NAFA's ad on messenger.

they have pretty interesting courses
that kind of attracted me
eg.
Fine Art: painting and drawing
Arts Management

i thought maybe i could study there

but,
to my dismay,
i found out that i could only study
them at dipolma level,
though i'm an 'A' lvl graduate.

degrees / master ???
oh, fat hope.
i need a portfolio,
+ pass an interview/audio
+ pass NAFA tests...
4 criteria, i met only 1!

i'm so not going to make it into NAFA!
;(

-more options please-



NAFA open house:
310108 - 020208
10.30am-5.00pm

SQ.1

there is something not pleasing me

again, i'm back to square one!
dotz-

plain in its beauty

yupz, i know my blog is
real PLAIN and
seemingly boring,

but i choose to differ,
ITS OF QUALITY!

oblivious?

everytime,
when i try to give chance,
or try to prove myself wrong,
i'm down to square one,
making no difference,
still right here.

i hope i can say yes,
this is the f/s that i want to be at,
i've found it...
but again,
i'm held back,
not knowing what to
assure myself of.
uncertain__

if silence to people
quates itself to one of being
aloof and haughty,
then fine,
i shall just live with it

if people now wants
'instant noodle' style
quick-to-warm-up
people,
then i will tell you,
you will never
'cook' me.
wrong method

after 4 attempts,
i would say f/s time
in itself is worth it,
especially bible study weeks,

but after that?
what am i to expect of it?
nothing
only silence,
and more silence... ...

maybe it just goes down
to my own innate problem,
silence.

when people tell me to change,
get rid of the silence,
i firmly choose to stand by it.
because,
silence is my fortitude,
my depth,
my eyes... ...

maybe, maybe... ...



-in silence, i observe-

re-read

my handphone's msg inbox is finally
FULL at 3363 messages.
so that little orange/yellow envelope
goes on blinking 'inbox full'

natural reaction, delete old messages.
in the process of it (still in the midst)
i re-read all those msges that people
sent me over the past 10 months...

i realised we talked about lots of things
shared much of our thoughts with each other,
but somehow i cant seem to remember much
memories are brought back again.

to those who make my phone
SMILE with joy of vibration,
thanks for filling up my inbox!
do continue to fill it up again ;)

空回首.等待

两点，三点，四点，五点，六点... ...
广场时钟的秒针无情的嘀嗒着.
四十余岁的中年男子直望着眼前的大厦
似呼在等待着什么的发生.
而陪伴着他的是一只脱了绒毛的小熊.

来往的行人都对他投下异样的眼光
他已经在这同样的地方呆望了无数个下午
有的人猜想他是被情妇抛弃了
有的人说他是被人骗了财妻子跑了
有的人设想他是爱上了不该爱上的女人
但从来都没有人知道他的故事... ...

有个声音却不断的在他的脑海里重复地说：
‘这个臭东西还给你！别来烦我们了！
要我说几次女儿不是你的！
我们离婚吧！’





注：
这是高中时因爱亚的一篇极短篇小说
而得到灵感后所写下的创作，
与大家分享，希望你们会喜欢 ;)

妈

祝您
生日快乐
主爱满溢，
靠主常常喜乐！

南初新闻台

很怀念那时的一切
reporting,
filming,
editing,
studio... ...
好想再做一次的新闻报道!

alone

'its your own silence that keeps you alone'
-extracted from Jin'shei

(i'm anti-social ;) )

unknown-

by right, i should have things to blog about,
yet time and again i stare at the 'create post' page,
not knowing what to type

over the past few days,
change took place too quickly,
too quickly that time seems to have left me behind.
i feel like i'm stepping into a new chapter of my life.
what happened, whatever is going to happen,
make it beautiful

remember the tears,
remember the smiles... ...

aspire

(sat in for their lesson)

i watched how she presented her lesson,
listened to every word, every comment she made.
noted whatever was needed,

i am determined to reVamp practically everything.
1. the way lesson is being taught
2. the interaction between teacher and student
3. the kids mindset
4. be their friends, be the facilitator
5. simplify profound terms that i too at times
find difficult to comprehend
6. more talking done by the students
7. break down the stigma in them
8. make them thinking individuals
9. provide a platform for them to share
10. understand their needs

ultimately, their relationship with GOD
is the most important -
to foster one that is closer to HIM,
so that even when they are old,
they continue to live in YOU,
your words.

GOD,
if you take pleasure in the
works of my hand,
please guide me on
as i put all my worries unto you,
for nothing is impossible in you.

-i say a little prayer to you-
(listen to me, let me see your ways)

little girl

please help the little girl!
she does'nt know what to do.
she thinks what had been done was right,
but its slowly proving not.

confused, weary... ...
where to find the answer?

random thought

i should must as well live off better
in a remote island that is far far away... ...

180108

(any slightest speculation is NOT appreciated)


this day marks down many things,
things that you and i will remember,
memories that years later,
we might look back and smile once more,
saying 'it was right'

thanks to a good friend of mine,
if not i dont think i will have the courage,
to face you, to say what i wanted to.

from the time we first met,
to the times i ran at the sight of you,
to the times we would rather live
in the electronic world than reality,
to the times you faced facts and
dwell in your emotions...
to the times you continued to stand by
... ... ...

the ending he made for you on my behalf,
seems to have lost its original purpose.

i said my piece,
what i thought was meant to be an ending,
both for you and me
... ... ...

no matter what the outcome might be,
desirable or not,
let us be more informed of each other's decision
when the day comes... ...

to part or stay,
let fate and destiny decides it.
but most importantly,
let HIM mastermind it.



-让我这一生
行走在你的计划,恩典里
因我的好处不在你以外-

恩典 ；）

当我数算你的恩典时，
我只有感恩，再感恩。
你赐的，是出我预料。
-在你里面我从不缺乏-

南胜美

如果你会说得很不容易，
那你说我会听得很容易吗？

coincidence..

(today, i ending work early)

1.
the familiar spiked hair,
the same body posture,
the cannot be mistaken height...

i bump into him!
my LEP teacher - ng how wee.

once again, all those memories were brought back
those chinese literature lessons,
those consultation before A level,
those 新诗，现代小说，茶馆...
oh i missed them!!! !!!

recalling every bits and pieces of those times,
i will never forget
-how he explain every stanza of the poem in great detail,
-making every character in the play come to life,
like he was 老舍 the second.
-the way he challenged our thinking to think out of
what was given in the textbook,
to search for more indepth themes that
the author was trying to bring out.
-he definitely taught us more than those
i really want to attend his chinese literature lesson again!
I WANT!!!

2.
i thought it was my illusion or my pure imagination...
after so many years, since the last time we said good bye,
(about 3 years plus), we actually bump into each other
again, in the same train carriage,
what probability is that?
nice to meet you after so long.
hope you continue to do fine!
take care

怀疑

你可能也在怀疑，
为什么付出这么多，却只能眼睁睁的
看着我不停的注视着那扇似封密的门
而不曾回头看你撒落一地的... ...
-[默默的背后拿刀捅自己]-

-明白，对不起-

哪里？

很想说有你是幸福的，
可是幸福要怎么说？
因为你带给我的都是迷惑猜疑
安全感？
默默守候?

对不起

对 你 我是非常的不公，自私。
不能怎么样 只能说对不起
但再多的对不起都不能弥补什么。

对不起... ... ...

craZe

ever since the time i started working,
8.45am to 5.45pm, getting a hour lunch break,
in the what seems not-so-exciting building,
sitted by middle road... ...

i realised... ...

i could do many things during the 1 hr.
walking bugis village and bugis junction,
has become a 'favourite' past time...

any food that cost less than $3 will perk me up,
any clothes that could be bought at
nothing more than $10 will catch my attention,
any accessory that is priced at $5 will attract me.
(money doesnt come by easy! i seem broke all the time)

working is definitely NO FUN.
staring at the computer screen from 9-12, 1-6,
results in life-less eyes.
food and tea are the essentials to keep me awake
through all the what seems endless typing.

the magical words -
LUNCH TIME,
OK THANKS,
(big SMILE from the manager)
all inject ENERGY into me
because they = TIME TO GO HOME!

the most important thing i realised about myself:
my maintenance fee is NOT cheap
(i always thought i was *cries*)

MONEY isnt easy to come by,
to my daddy and mummy,
thanks for all that was spent on me!
i will work hard...
and ... ... (i guess you know what)

DADDY MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!

once,twice

if you can do it once,
there is no reason why
you cannot do it this time round.

and i will be left here
stupidly waiting for the same outcome?

FRIDGE

i miss her lame jokes SO BADLY!!!!
i missed those times back in nanyang
where boring breaks were killed with her lame jokes,
where waits for each A level paper to begin
was spiced with those laughter.
i want those times to come back!!!
she once said, 'if i dont know which uni i want to go,
i'll follow where you go! share the same hostel!!'
will things come true this way?
it will be cool, she's a great room mate to have!

to this special gift from God
(HE really answered both our prayers
for we both asked for the same gift)
i hope you are coping well with the job that you are doing now.
may all your aspirations and wishes come true.
dont forget the many little promises we made together!
may you continue to grow strong in HIS words.
may our friendship blossom in HIS love!

3 cheers to our friendship!

(MING SHI aka BIG CAT!)

x2

are we both thinking and wishing for the same thing?
if it is, may dreams come true,
(but if it happens am i ready for it? i dont know)

x2 ?

蔡戊龙

像 蔡戊龙 （魔女宥熙 在熙饰）
这样的大好男人，那找？绝种了吗？
请告诉我找得到吗？

2008

what will you unfold into?

anxiety will fill this year as i await for the release of the 2007 A level results.
i'm not sure what awaits me at the end of this seems to be very long break.
may it be something that is worth the effort that i have put in these 2 years.
may it glorify the Lord that has taken care and guided me through
all those big and small exams that i feared too much
not to have cleared them and repeat another year.

but before i wonder what this year will bring to me,
i'll sing praises to the ALMIGHTY one for HE has his ways for me,
though i may not understand them at times
and questioned too quickly to see the beauty and wisdom
that HE has put into planning my life.
i thank-you for all that you've done for me,
may i continue to grow in your
everlasting words, love, blessings, grace, and wisdom.

this year, will also unfold another new chapter of my life.
Nanyang is over, but i will still miss it too dearly,
from the building, to your mesmorising night beauty,
to the principal who left a great impression, and accepted what the youths thought,
to the caring passionate teachers, the lessons they spent nights preparing,
to all those special you(s) that have brought laughter and tears to me.
all have left beautiful footprints in my memory that i'll never forget.

tomorrow i'll experience something that i've missed
because i had no privilege of holding any leadership post
that forfeited my chance of any job attachment.
for this hard to come by chance, i'll work hard,
I will PROVE IT!

make a wish, make a wish,
may i be blessed with the university and the course that is suitable for me.
my brains too, please dont get too rusty before school reopens some time later.

to my friends out there,
be it those that i've not seen you for a long time or talk to for the past years,
i hope that this year, whatever friendship that was neglected,
will find its foundations again.
stay in touch!

since 2007 is over,
i shall learn to put it behind, and look forward to a new start.
the pains, the tears, the laughter, the smiles, the sweet and sour that you brought,
i'll keep in my memory, and let all be carved on stone,
so that in happy times, i'll know how to treasure them,
and in trying times, i'll know how to smile (;

-2008-
may you be filled with
WISDOM,
MATURITY,
GRACE,
COMPASSION,
& LOVE
(may i meet the special you who is worth it)