wisdom tooth

this is definitely not the way i want my christmas to be, 

but it is so. 

if it all did not happened this way, 

i would be happily dating my boyfriend everyday, 

going to see the christmas lightings, 

going to sentosa for picnic... etc...

but what really happened was, 

i dated my wisdom tooth since 24 dec, and till now, 

i dont see it coming anywhere close to letting me off its hook. 

its been drowning me in endless pain, 

fatigue of the heart (is there such a description?)

cold palms and foot, 

headaches,

and most torturous of all, 

only those delicious christmas food could stare at me, 

alluring me to eat them, 

but all i can do, is turn my head away. 

please, would you stop this torture on me? 

i think its more than enough!

lonely

为什么总把伤心留给我？

为什么总要让我哭泣着入眠？
为什么， 留下孤单陪伴我？

为什么， 当下， 你看不见我有可能流泪的心？

为什么， 总说悔不当初？

slow steps

i'm really TIRED.

tired in this race, to chase the title. 

i've worked so hard, double the effort in fact.

but i dont see it coming.

i held the hope till the last moment, 

until everything just shattered in my eyes. 

this space, 

is filled with the smell of rust, 

of staleness, of sweat,

of disappointment, 

that only amplifies to the depths that consumes me.

i am lost. 

what is the next step?

how will i walk the last lap?

   

刺猬

就好象，
两个相爱的情侣， 想紧紧的拥抱在一起， 

但，因为情感的激情， 而涨起了刺，

把彼此刺得遍体鳞伤， 

但，再痛， 也还是要紧紧的拥抱着。 

blond Amsterdam inspired nails

you know what i do after exams...

stalk manicure blogs!

breakfast

men, they are attracted to new things,

women, they always reminiscent the past.

i am no exception. 

i am so bored from studying, i needed a break so badly, 

so i went flipping through our old photo album.

originally i had wanted to search for the every first photo we took together, 

but instead, i found this. 

somehow, the same warm feeling is back again. 

i think it was the fist or second month of even week into our relationship, 

and one day, he meet me for breakfast to gave me this before i went off to work.

he said, because where i intern was at the other end of Singapore, 

i had to get up extra early to be on time, so he made this just in case i was hungry on the way. 

he said, i know you love green tea stuff, so that swiss roll was specially bought to pacify my taste-buds.

because its my first time being someone's girlfriend, 

because its my first time...

there were so many things that were new, 

that i had to get used to, 

that i would like to savour slowly and enjoy the process thoroughly.

i was shocked beyond words by how sweet he could be. 

18months on, 

i look back, and i think this journey together with you is simply amazing, 

from being strangers, 

to being friends, 

to close friends, 

to being a couple, 

to being comfortable being around each other, 

to being who we are, even in our worst state, 

to simply sharing every little thing with each other.

i never knew there will be such a day, 

i'll feel so at ease being with someone other than my parents, 

i never knew there will be a day, 

someone will love me like this, 

so many things, 

i never knew. 

but you, 

showed me them. 

有一条路

也许随着年日的加增，

越来越能体会， 行走这条天国的路是条窄路，

但愿， 靠着那加给我力量的主，

这一生我都不放弃行走这条路。

这时的我， 多想俯伏在您跟前，

告诉我， 我当如何行，

才能讨您的欢心？

我当怎么办？！？

我心中的苦楚， 唯您明白！

UNI style fit

saw some classmates using such pretty pens

and it got me all so crazy over them because they simply look too chic not to own one myself too!

 i love the poka dots design. so cute!

 so chic dont you think so?!?

 i got the blue one because thats the only one i could find after visiting quite a few bookstalls. 

 i read on some reviews that there are 102 refills to choose from.

they come in a variety of shades: 

black, browns, blues, purples, greens, reds, oranges, pinks, yellows. 

to make it better, 

there are 5 different type of fineness to pick from, 

all of them are are gel ink, only .7 and 1. barrels are ball points - jeststeam.

pleasant surprise for me. i love jetsteam, they make me write so fast.
i love the speed jetstream gives me.

i love the combination i picked :

.7blue, .5pink, .5lime green. 

i text my boyfriend after i bought my new toy, and he called me back saying this:

'poka dots again! your clothes are poka dots, now even your pens! you love poka dots a lot huh? thats why you love me right? because i have lots of poka dots too - my pimpled face! ' 

totally brighten up my day!

of course thats a joke, its not true that i love he because he has pimples, 

but because he is who he is, 

since pimples' part of him, so i'll love them.

but then again, i nag. 

HAHA!!!

18th monthsary

18 months... ...

i dont know why, 

but i just feel 18 months is something special.

so here's some photos of us together at waraku de pasta 

for our 18th monthsary mini celebration 

the first time we took photos together since coming back from russia. 

thats L.O.N.G!!!

 this set is really really worth it, $24+, good to fill 2 tummies!

 pardon the horrible cam-whoring skills. 

 to end off, 

of course i must show a photo of us together, 

pardon the really tired face, 

we had a super long day in church. 

just some thoughts

 even if you dont like the music i play, 

you will choose to let me play a lullaby for you before you sleep, 

because you love me, 

you love my everything. 

in times of trouble, i know there is always a strong shoulder that will carry me through. 

*this photo is taken during the recent Thailand floods. 

for my dearest boyfriend

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders. Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

“Why?” he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can’t even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me:” What can I do to change your mind?” Somebody said it right, it’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : “Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?” He said :” I will give you your answer tomorrow….” My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes….

My dear, “I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further..” This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading. “When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your “good friend” approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face…

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. ” My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and as I continue on reading…

“Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk…

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread…. Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…

That’s life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… and that’s our life… Love, not words win arguments…

boyfriend shirt-skirt

such a cool idea, i feel like trying it out someday.

boyfriend! give me your shirt!

*but i think it might end up too huge for me ):

我只是... ...

有时， 

我只是想忙里偷闲，

只为了贪图多一秒睨视着你的机会。

有时， 

发小姐脾气， 只是希望你哄我， 

告诉我， 我们会见个面，

就算最后办不到， 也想听你说。 

有时， 

你不明白， 看似自私， 

其实，那是我想为你好。 

有时， 

沉默不语， 不是不在乎， 

只是希望你能紧紧的抱住我。 

有时， 

嘴里说明白， 其实不是想听你的言论， 

只是渴望你能停下来， 

看着我， 对我说；我感激你为我所做的一切。 

我觉得女人嘛， 

都希望自己的男朋友对她说 - 

少一些的道理， 

少一些的借口，

 少一些的理由，

多一些的感激， 欣赏的话。

‘谢谢’ - 是多么神奇的两个字。 

manicure!

 ooo such a lovely colour!!!

one day i shall get this nail colour too!

 they make me dream, feel carefree. 

i like that feeling

 ultimate cuteness!

 always wanted such nude nail colour, but i just cant seem to be able to find the correct shade ):

for once, tom and jerry are not fighting. 

its peace!

boys, they do not understand

Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well,...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But..Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend:You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. 

THAT’S what happened..




i bold-ed it, so you could understand why.
but you must know, i still love you loads despite the little things we do accidentally that hurt each other.

我想和你做的100件事 ♥

1、 一起看雪
2、一起看海
3、手牵手逛街
4、喂我吃东西
5、一起堆雪人
6、一起坐摩天轮
7、一起恶作剧
8、一起进 鬼屋
9、吃同一杯冰淇淋
10、一起搬东西
11、一起布置我们的小窝
12、一起看日出
13、半夜一起看恐怖片
14、送 我一束花
15、为我做顿饭
16、牵着我的手过马路
17、一起看日落
18、一起数星星
19、一起洗衣服
20、背靠背听 同一首曲子
21、在朋友面前介绍我
22、把肩膀借给我靠
23、为我擦眼泪
24、为我唱首歌
25、为我写篇日记
26、 在大街上背我
27、随叫随到
28、一起看球赛
29、比赛啃西瓜
30、一起捏泥人，一个你，一个我
31、一起没形象的大叫
32、一起熬夜玩游戏
33、比赛喝酒
34、早晨一起刷牙
35、一起发呆
36、一起过我们的纪念日
37、一起对着流星许 相同的愿望
38、一起折许愿星
39、一起做蛋糕
40、学对方说话
41、当一天陌生人
42、把你欺负的对我没辙
43、 讲一夜电话
44、为我剪指甲
45、一起养只小狗
46、一起拍照片
47、一起骑脚踏车
48、戴同一条围巾
49、戴同一 双手套
50、讲故事哄我睡觉
51、一起吃棉花糖
52、一起去K歌
53、一起淋雨
54、一起面对所有难堪
55、一起爬 山
56、一起露营
57、一起晨练
58、一起傻笑
59、一起吃路边摊
60、一起去孤儿院送礼物
61、穿情侣装显摆
62、一起玩牌
63、一起吃米线到吐
64、一起踩马路到脚软
65、一起去医院看婴儿
66、一起去海南的天涯海角
67、把你打 扮成女生
68、咬一下你的脸颊
69、每天说晚安
70、一起看电影
71、一起种花
72、比赛吹牛
73、一起见对方的朋 友
74、一起吃自助餐，牵着手进去，扶着墙出来
75、一起荡秋千
76、一起做鬼脸
77、一起走遍世界各地
78、一起数钱 (全是一角的)然后大笑
79、一起扎气球赢奖品
80、站在马路的两侧大喊
81、看你打场球赛
82、一起看演唱会
83、一起 沿铁轨
84、一起挤公车
85、一起放风筝
86、一起去普罗旺斯看花田
87、趁你睡觉偷亲你一下
88、一起放孔明灯
89、起钓鱼
90、一起下棋
91、一起在烈日下暴晒
92、手机铃声设置成对方的声音
93、每天为对方留言
94、一起捏对方 的脸
95、比赛各种各样的事
96、一起看烟火
97、在树下埋下我们的约定
98、去海边放漂流瓶
99、拍一次婚纱照
100、白头偕老

Петергоф

Петергоф - Peter the Great's Palace

suburbs of St. Petersburg

Peter the Great, is deemed to be the greatest Tsar of Russia. 

he brought western ideas, practices, traditions and culture into Russia to modernise Russia. he was the first Tsar who moved out of Kremlin and built his palace here. the reason historians gave, was that he had bad memories of Kremlin and couldn't wait to get out of Moscow. St. Petersburg was chosen as the new capital because he felt Russia needed access to the water ways to boost its economy. 

hope this little piece of extra history makes the following photos more interesting (:

*pardon my horrid looking face, that spoilt all the photos what i was in, because i was suffering from serious indigestion that day and was feeling totally upset. and the rain doesn't makes things any better. 

 here over looks the centre garden

 if you take a boat from here, you will reach the Gulf of Finland. 

 the fountains you see here, 

they are not electronically operated.

they are the original fountains that operate 

due to the land shape and water pressure that results. 

 everything that looks Gold here, 

is plated with REAL Gold!

 my face totally spoils the beautiful photo ):

 the lower garden. 

 Gulf of Finland!