25 hours

25 hours before 2008 draws its curtains...
before i say good-bye...

its always good to do a little reflection...
what has 2008 brought to me...
look back at 2008's resolutions
and ponder... have i met them?!?

to go into the minute details,
i hate that, because, well nevermind...
to look back and say i'm satisfied,
i cant.
to say i've experienced much,
i agree.
to say many thanks to those who
make 2008 a memoriable one,
thanks a lot.
to say thanks to those who did otherwise,
thanks too.
for His grace and overflowing blessings,
i sing praises to the Almighty Father!



-kiss good-bye-

long pants

i think the number of
long pants (inculding jeans)
i have in my cabinet
can go compete with those
my a* pek owns (:

因果啊!

我相信这世界
有个东西叫报应！

countdown

as 2008 draws close to an end
countdown ads are flashing all over the tele

i wonder....
whats there to celebrate?... really, honestly
when year after year,
we hope the next year will be a better one
but it only turns out otherwise... ... ...
more natural disasters,
more terrorist killings
more pandemic,
more problems,
more fear,
more uncertainty

for this, would you still want to celebrate?

blogspot

personally i think blogspot
is very userfriendly (:

i wonder?!?

sometimes i really wonder...
this is a love-hate relationship
with Chinese New Year....

every year i wished we celebrate
it in Singapore
but time and again... NO
everytime we see this grandma,
then what about the other one?

isnt that being selfish?
i wonder
you say i should be a role model,
to go up and pay a visit,
but i wonder,
what about you?
are you being too selfish to
always want it your way?
have you not considered others?

or isit me?
who is being selfish?
because of the resentment?
i know by right i should give in
and do as you wish,
but by left...nope,
and in my opinion,
i think either ways are right!

i dont know... Really
HELP ME!

wishlist

wishlist....

for sightseeing & inspiration>
1. sentosa
2. mandai zoo
3. birdpark
4. vivo's rooftop
5. esplanade
6. beach (ecp)
7. pasir ris park
8. library
9. hort park

for makan>
1. market 85
2. korean BBQ
3. jap sushi
4. steamboat
5. jap pasta
6. marche
7. Ikea
8. table BBQ
9. NYDC

for shopping>
1. far east plaza
2. bugis village
3. anywhere that sells cheap
Nice stuff

for memories>
1. nanyang jc
2. somewhere
*secret

for errands & etc>
1. booklink
2. art 'n' craft shop
3. stationary shop
4. spotlight
5. ikea
6. chapter 2
7. toni&guy
8. pasar malam

07december2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to

STATUSSQUO!

1 year old!




some records
193 posts...and still counting on
1137 visits...and still counting on
changed blogskin....once
(from black to colour)
added tagboard
added counter
posted 2 videos
posted ~10 pictures

vanishing acts

sometimes
when you don't ask questions,
its not because you are afraid
that someone will lie to your face,
its because
you're afraid they'll tell you
the truth
-Vanishing Acts. Jodi Picoult



sometimes
when people choose to remain silent,
it is not because they don't know,
or fake ignorance,
but because
they are afraid they'll tell you
the truth




**************
Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult,
i rate it ****/5*
*so psychology class!

well, it makes you ponder -
is love doing what the person wants,
or
doing what you think is best for the person?

in short,
the novel is a beautiful, heartbreaking,
controversial, and honest book
that keeps your mind toying with the issues
even when you have read it cover to cover.

迷失的小羊

最近的心境，好比两年前的心境
失去方向，不知何从
人生好像失去了宗旨，
前程是乌云密布，阴霾
好像在等待，等待着不知道什么...

15个星期，我挨过了.
增一度想放弃，我熬过了。
曾迷失的我，找回了回家的路。
曾失去灵魂的我，不再茫然的追随。
回到你的宝座前，
世间的人是非，你得毒钩在哪？
惟 你 最为可爱，甜美！

找回自己，
找回灵魂，
迷失的小羊，
被主人找寻
我要在 你 其中欢喜快乐！

****************


《主的恩召》

千万同胞在等待
等待主的福音恩召
白白的救恩在等待
等待你和我去传开

*simply love this song (:



-inspiration_

life.is.full.of.colours

life.is.full.of.colours?!?

phobia (:

g.AT has got
... ...
SEVERE
HOMO-SAPIENS
PHOBIA!!!

HAPPY.randomness

OBAMA won the
US presidential elections!
we await change!
US awaits change!
Asia awaits change!
the WORLD awaits CHANGE!!!

POLITICAL SCIENCE ROX!
the next big thing is >>>>
PUBLIC POLICY!!!!

worthwhile!
all bids gotten!
SMILEZ (: (: (:


-g.AT's random (: _

meaningless

i'm thoroughly sick and tired
of THIS inside out
its a crazy world that i live in.

they say do unto others,
what you wish they do unto you.

so apt...
only because
you do mean things to others
and people remember them
deep inside their hearts
though they claimed they have
forgiven you.... ....

but...
when you do good unto others
what do you get in return???

whats the meaning to being ms nice
when in the end,
(*according to Darwin's theory)
you get negatively selected against?!?


-meaning-less.disgusted-

泣...

很想抱着自己，大大声地哭，
尽头，只有厚厚的墙重叠着。
我想做得好的时候，
只有屡次的失败，
我真的无力...
我怎么做？

每次只有泪水往肚子里吞，
谁来听我说？


-走了-

《触摸》

《触摸》

专辑：我只是想要…
陈伟联 - 触摸
词：彭资闵
曲：Jimmy Antiporda

听说南方从来不会有寂寞
听说在海边世界没有尽头
你哭覂告诉我
你和他梦想的种种
我会是你雨天的湖泊
拥抱你的温柔
好想看你的笑容
对离开的他说
你心中那份美丽
怎么找都不会再有

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透 而不是
舍不得他的所有
慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火
我在这天黑了也不会走
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远守候
不要难过
----

听说冬天叶子熟了会 脸红
听说在天空
有迷人的星座
一起去探险吧
也许你会喜欢而感动
你沉默的时候
我知道你的心还很痛
真想看你的笑容
对你的他大声说
你心中那份美丽
怎么找都不会再有

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透 而不是
舍不得他的所有
慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火
我在这天黑了也不会走
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远守候
不要难过
----

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透 而不是
舍不得他的所有
慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火
我在这天黑了也不会走
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远守候
不要难过
----

women

'Women, she wrote,
are as naturally rational as men,
if they are silly,
it is only because society
trains them to be irrelevant.'

'Men of quality respect
Women's equality'




-I'm a FEMINIST
are you?-

《不想》

这次，
不想一再再失败后
还要从新站起来
装着很勇敢。

这次，
只想脆弱的倒下
再没有勇气
更命运斗。

这次，
不想一再再伤透您的心
却感到无能为力
对不起。

这次，
又跪在您施恩的宝座前
恳切地求您赦免我
重蹈覆辙。

再次，
怎能说：我爱你!?
却屡次用锤子
敲打您钉痕的手？

nature

all men are not created equal. .
Some are born smarter,
or more beautiful,
or with parents of greater status.
Some, by contrast,
are born weak of body or mind,
or with few, if any, talents.
All men are different.
Yes,
the very existence of man is discriminatory!
Inequality is not evil.
Equality is.

stupid

very ANGRY with myself!
HATE MYSELF!!!


-STUPID!!!-

.怨.

有时，
是极度的怨恨自己!
撑一支希望？
我做不到!
这一刻，
我只想 - 静



《被爱的女人》
不断的在脑海里反复的唱着...

《12莲花》的剧情
不断的在脑海里放映着... ...

好长... 好长... ... ...




-怨-

(写的再多，又有什么用？

有人说: '写忧虑，是为了让自己更忧虑'

好像 - 一针见血... ...)

十二莲花

《十二莲花》歌词 *注：闽南语

第一可怜罗莲花 出生风场昧快活
凄惨落泊就是我 做牛做马也得拖

第二可怜莲花酸 苦命莲花心头酸
后母不为仔打算 想要嫁人也久长

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

第三可怜莲花姐 坏命做工到半暝
头烧目晕那是病 破病也得去赚钱

第四可怜莲花代 好坏人客阮招待
十分招待嫌阮坏 要打要骂又要塞

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

第五可怜莲花种 有人实在无同情
也无外多钱阮用 要打要骂又要种

第六可怜莲花城 流落欢场歹名声
后母爱钱无爱仔 迫到阮呀无路行

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

第七可怜莲花红 阮是可怜歹命人
后母当阮不是人 害阮痛苦一世人

第八可怜莲花头 流落欢场昧出头
后母顾前无顾后 害阮暝日目屎流

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

第九可怜莲花时 做了这行已几年
可怜家人无相见 阮嘛不知企叨位

第九可怜莲花时 做了这行已几年
可怜家人无相见 阮嘛不知企叨位

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

十一可怜莲花怨 想到身世真哀怨
后母迫我做这款 越想心内越超烦

十二莲花无了时 堕落黑暗难见天
少年赚钱是一时 老来怎样过日子

可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代

Barack Obama

potential US president - Barack Obama
majored in political science
I intend to major in political science


-potential ?!?-

checkmate

this time i'm so gonna checkmate you!

永远.不够

钱和贪是罪魁祸首！

SMU.Challenge

SMU CHALLENGE - is coming SOON

6 Sept - 7 Sept 2008
Plaza Sing

you ride the bike,
sponsors donate the money
1km for $1...
30hrs challenge!
aim $30 000

donations will be to -
Muscular Dystrophy Association of Spore
(MDAS)



SEE YOU THERE!!!

temple

han : 'eeh you got the TEMPLE face!'

-!?!-

singapore.beijing08

40+ years of prolonged waiting... ...
we are finally standing TALL
telling the world -WE DID IT

SILVER to TABLE TENNIS girls
team singapore-CONGRATULATIONS!!!

waiting

after much much waiting
at last, at last... ...

when people were off to
boon lay early in the morning
when people were off to
clementi early in the morning

talking about planning timetables
talking about the profs they have
talking about bidding their courses
talking about the modules they study
talking about the kind of friends they met
talking about every detail of university life
i listen... and listen...and more listening

at last at last...fianlly
its my turn!
when ntu students already experienced
2 weeks of university life
and when nus students have experienced
1 week of university life
the l-o-n-g wait is over

its finally MY turn
to experience it MYSELF


-1 more day!-

convocation 2008

SMU COVOCATION 2008
GLAM GLAM bling bling!!!

i'm so <3-ing it
i feel like a university student-
FINALLY ;)

capella

i'm finally back from ftb run 4
well our section CAPELLA won
that makes us 2 time champion
for overall section championship
not bad! 50% is capella's power

anyway ftb's rather like NY's
O2 leadership camp during JAE
but is x10 the difficulty!!!

our activities:
1. tunneling
2. tallest foot tower
3. right way out
4. shinning star
5. rafting
6. inverted cones
7. horizonal spider web

i shall not brag about the details
of each activity here,
because i cant write prose
that describe everyday life
it disgust me totally
so if u wanna know more about
our exculsive to smu camp
(which nus is trying to copy us,
but is a step slower... lol)
ask me personally ;)



-hot.smelly.dirty.TIRED-

mr.president

I'm a social science student
and so is Mr S.R. Nathan
he majored in SOCIOLOGY!

process.repeat

Learn.Un-learn.Re-learn

i hate this process repeating itself
over and over and over again

consolation: social science
TOTALLY NEW TO ME ;)

fire.burn

its been close to 3 yrs
from invited pianist
to co-teacher
to teaching
i came into the ministry
with passion and vigour

years later, when i look back

will i be running dry of the
fire that burned when i was young?
will i no longer be burning
with the passion that held before?
will i be the one who step in
and the students groan 'its her again?'
will i not spend that much time,
thinking day and night for inspiration?
will i still present wholeheartedly
making perfection my only standard?

will i, will i! will i?

its a dangerous vacuum
that i fear to fall into


-please! burn!-

obsession.addiction

'cookie monster'
is not only obsessed with
COOKIES... ...
but

with grover.AT's organizer diary
with grover.AT's statussquo tag
with grover.AT's blogskin change
with grover.AT's teal highlighter
with grover.AT's 万能 pencilcase
etc... ..

grover.AT is cookie monster's
magnetic field!!! (",)



GROVER.AT's fan club ?!?

break point

i've said it time and again
i've tried my very best
i've given you chance(s)

but your ears are heavy
your eyes are blinded
your heart locked

this time,
i - SURRENDER!

慧琳

敏：有些角度你看起来
有点像陈慧琳


-!?!-


(what do you think?
make your vote on
AlienTree's tagboard)

追风捕影

这一刻，
我早已该知道，
你已飞离我的世界。
你是错过的友情，
唤不回记忆的思恋。
那是多么遥远的鸿沟！


-你的选择-

《红色蒲公英》

撑一支梦想，
在你无瑕的羽毛上，
飞吧，我吹，飞吧，
飞往梦想，成功的天国，
在那里我是骄傲，自豪的！

撑一支渴望，
在你天使的翅膀上，
飞吧，我吹，飞吧，
带我带那完美的原野，
寻觅着属于我的无缺爱情！

撑一支愿望，
在你许愿的白毛上，
飞吧，我吹，飞吧，
奔上愿望的无际阶梯，
期待着每个小小心愿落实！

你是大自然赐下的完美，
你是无数梦想的梦飞船，
你是理想爱情的虚幻梦，
你是无尽愿望的小使节。

飞吧，唤吧，飞吧，幻吧，
红色蒲公英！

anti

i'm getting increasingly more
ANTI-SOCIAL
by the day!

the more i go to smu
for what-so-ever reson
i more i want to cling
unto the pillars of NYJC.

the more i see people of smu,
i want to dig a hole and hide inside.

the more FTB draws nearer,
i want to be invisible

i want school to start NOW,
but i'm scared



-NOES to uncertainties ;( -

wish(es).either

1. either - time to freeze at this moment
(not that i love this point of time of
my life, but i urmm... ...)

2. or - time to fast-forward to >>>
18 Aug 2008

3. better still - remove FTB!
( i dont want to go!)


-day-DREAMING-

looks ;)

'If you look at them separately,
such as my eyes, my nose,
and my nouth, they are not bad.
When you put them together,
its just okay.'
-Mark Lee, on his looks

完美vs缺陷

这个世界没有完美.
如果你能包容不完美，
这个世界就会是完美.

-really?-

<你没想象中爱我>

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想象中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想象中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

嗬~~谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜~~
你没想象中爱我

你没想像中爱我

u.perfect.cut

过去的批评嘲讽 Let it go Let it go
过去的轻蔑冷落 Let it go Let it go
有些人口不饶人 却忘了瞧瞧自己
又有什么资格

时刻都善良待人 Let’s move on Let’s move on
时刻都做好本分 Let’s move on Let’s move on
有些人心思浅薄 绝不是宽容
自暴自弃的理由

也许 确实也受过言语打击
也许 因此而失去了自信心
但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界（的）美丽

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过 失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑 不埋怨
就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼

一切完美

philosophical

melissa: your blog very philosophical,
cannot understand/know you better.

-really?-

equations.

happiness = reality / expectation
hope = expectation / reality

[adapted from 19 minutes
by Jodi Picoult]

.完美.

你眼里的完美， 就一定是完美？
你看不见的完美，就一定是不完美？

attraction

someone said: 'you will attract weird people
and they are usually ones that you wont like'


[i'm not telling you know my thoughts ;)
try your luck on msn ;) ]

-!?!-

superWOMAN

i totally SALUTE her!

she's a woman with her career,
loving, caring, always
giving us all that she has,
in nuturing us-students,

she is a mother of two,
her love for her seemingly
genetically imperfect children,
her strength as the emotional
pillar of her family,
the courage and strength
that steam through
her petite figure
as she faced the hard facts.
her determination to
walk this road
that others see it-impossible.

to you,
i give you my utmost
respect and admiration.


-jia you! my superwoman!-



[delicated to my '07 ny GP tutor]

差传

今天教会举行年度差传年会，
不禁，让我想起06年泰北短宣。
这里有些照片与大家分享；）















children at the camp we organised.
(mostly farmers' children, Akka race)















the winners of the volleyball match.
they are my students too. totally <3 them!
(btw, they can speak chinese)














2006 Thailand mission trip, team members.
( Thailand, ChiangMai,ChiangRai, Pan Doi)
Grp Leader, 1st row, from left 3rd and 4th,
Maybelline, Zhong Jie




HuiZhongPo NanTa Kindergarten children,
singing and dancing to the hymns / songs
(go figure the title of the songs)


2006 - i went
2007 - there wasnt any
2008 - I WANT TO GO!!!

Perfect Match

i recently just finished reading this
novel by Jodi Picoult.

there's a reason why i chose this
book cover, because, i love
the way he stares, like there are
deep thoughts in him.

Synopsis :
As a assistant district attorney, Nina Frost
prosecutes the sort of crimes that tear
families apart. but when Nina and her
husband discovers that their 5-year old
son Natheniel has been sexually abused,
it is her own family that is deverstated.
The world Nina inhabits now seems different
from the one she lived in yesterday;
the lines between family and professional
life are erased; and answers to questions
she thought she knew are no longer easy
to find. Overcome by anger and desperate
for vengeance, Nina ignites a battle that
may cause her to lose the very thing
she's fighting for.

Review:
I'm not a mother myself,
maybe i cant emphasize just
as well, but Jodi keeps you
questioning yourself through
out the novel, 'if i were Nina,
will i do it the same way?'
'is Nina the hero or not?'
Besides, the many plot twist
keeps you reading from
cover to cover, and even
when you have finished it,
you will look back, and admire
the characters for their
courage, for the bravery,
for the love they hold
so dear to their hearts.

Nina Frost - I admire her as
the mother, who, in the name
of Natheniel's protector,
will go to the extremes to
protect her 'life'-Natheniel.
Yet sometimes, you really 'hate' her,
and wished she just shut-up,
bacause the reader knows
she is wrong this time round,
she does not know what's
the best, but yet she
insists that she does!

Caleb Frost - This is one character
that i really love, through out the
novel, he seems like he din't care,
he appears like he never approved
to his wife's actions, he will do anything
just to stay away from this 'monster'
that has overtook his wife's form
one morning. Yet, at the end of the novel,
Jodi makes you change your
impression of this big man.
He proves his love, for his
wife, for his family,
through his silent actions.

Natheniel Frost - The little boy who
is more mature than other kids his age,
because of what happened
to him. Picoult carefully crafted every
detail of Natheniel so that readers could
see the incident through the eyes of this
5-year old, and understand his thoughts.
Moreover, Jodi also use Natheniel's
thoughts to question the theme and
key issues brought up.
Nina: 'Natheniel, you did something wrong,
but you are stilla good boy'
Natheniel: 'What about Gwynne?'
Nina: 'No, he did something wrong,
and he is a bad person'
Natheniel: 'What about you?'
Nina: ... (tight for an answer)

Patrick Ducharme - The police detective
in the story. This is a character i'm in a
love-hate relationship with. Love him,
because he will go the extra mile for Nina,
even if it meant that he will lose his job.
Hate him, because he always seems like a
3rd party in the little Frost family.
Seems a little extra sometimes.

On the whole, i will recommend this book,
with the rating of * * * */5*s

-go grab it!-

.幸福.

只有得到过，才知挣扎的美好，
只有失去， 才明白曾经拥有的可贵



-幸福都在记忆里-


[取自，现在，吴淡如 著]

this life...

i try sooo hard to please
YOU
i try to get into the top class,
i did it
i try to take higher chinese,
i did it
i try to get into top 10 JCs,
i did it
i try to get into the top uni,
i did it

you want me to learn piano,
i did
you want me to join choir,
i did
you want me to be pianist,
i did
you want me to not join camps,
i did
you want me to not go for prom,
i did
you want me to dress decently,
i did
you want me to give up squash,
i did
you want me to keep short hair,
i did
you want me the goody-daughter,
i did
you want me to not dye my hair,
i did
you want me to not be like other youngsters,
i did

you wanted me to give up nanyang for TJ
i stuck to my LOVE
you wanted me to give up chinese lit
i stand by my LOVE
you quitely wished i gave up art
i almost did
i feared i disgrace you,
i gave up my passion

all my life, i try too hard to PLEASE you,
but you choose only to see my flaws,
and nothing beyond that.
you are never satisfied with what you have
you always say i dont meet your expectations
but you never praised me when i really needed one
when can i just be JOANNE,
and nothing more than that?


-do the extremez-

young

in terms of body's metabolic rate:
i'm declared YOUNG!
at age 16 (for a 91 years old)

I'm.prefect

i'm toe-ing the line of perfection

i must be the perfect daughter
i must be the perfect student
i must be the perfect teacher
i must be the perfect pianist
i must be the perfect person
i must be the perfect maid
i must be the perfect girl
i must be the superwoman

what if...
one day you realised... ...
i have not gotten into the top university
i have undesireable disgusting habits
i have no flare for doing house chores
i have horrible attitudes, bad temper
i have fallen far beyond expectations
i have sucidal/murderous thoughts
i have the worst piano skills
i have absolutely no brains
i have stagnant spritual life
i have a non-christian mate... ....

everything that holds the facade
will shatter into a thousand pieces

it is so called a place where people
FORGIVE AND FORGET
but no, honesty i dont think they do.
people expect you to be the '万能膏'
they name it, at fingers snap,
you are to produce it, perfect.
they do not allow mistakes,
they say they wont laugh,
but they do, even if it was
the slightest tumble,
they wait for your fall to laugh.
they say they have forgotten,
but they have not.

everything is 'they say'
but which is reflected by their actions?





-apparent-

grace

(my mother and i came home after dinner
i forgot to bring my keys and card out)

mum: gosh! i forgot the lock the metal gate!
me: mother! doi whats the matter with you?
mum : (smiles apologetically)
me: good thing the person is you, not me,
if not i will get scolding from you,
at least you wont get it from me.
(in the house)
mum: oh my keys are on the table!
me: thank goodness! if you locked the door
we will have to sit outside and wait for a* pek
(my dad, he's gone to m'sia, coming back on mon)
to come home, but even then, his keys are at home too!


-God's Grace. He sees-

promise

[i went back to nanyang to collect my cert]

pio: if you get into MFA,
remember to give me your name card
me: that will take some years
you will wait for my news right?
pio: yup, sure, dont forget
me: handphone no. will not change?
pio: yup, and try to visit me more often
some time soon, before the year ends.




-wait for me!-

错过？

流星划过天际，我错过了许愿，
浪花拍上演时，我错过了祝福，
故事讲了一遍，我错过了聆听，
人生只有一回，我错过了什么？

sujects of interest

art,
jazz,
classical music,
science fiction,
computer,
drawing/painting,
spiritual matters,
meditation,
handicraft,
writing, (oh so <3 it!)
strategic games,
politics (ss political science!)

mirror.mirror

on the wall... tell me, tell me... ...

i stared at the reflection in the silver coating,
an unfamiliar face plastered across it,
giving away no sign of youthfulness.
only the pale skin tone,
those sunken cheeks,
chipped lifeless lips...
'smile' seems like it has never made its
way onto this foreign sovereignty.

i see nothing more,
but a 91... ....



-haggard-

._-~爱~-_.

爱 是超越情感
爱 是为爱而爱
爱 以行动表现

《我只仰望你》

你是我主 我的盼望
是我坚固磐石和力量
我要向你 切切恳求
请作我一生的救主
你是我的主 你是我的王
你是我高台和盾牌
我的心渴慕 要讨你喜悅
我诚心向你屈膝敬拜


取自-我心旋律音樂事工
Melody of My Heart Music Ministry

Independent Thinkers

introverted, theoretical,
logical, planning,
rational, independent,
intellectual, self-confident,
analytical, structured,
dogged, witty,
resolute, self-critical,
visionary, inventive,
independent, unsociable,
reserved, nonconformist,
quiet, visionary,
honest, demanding,
hardworking


[click on the blue IT button for
more details of my personality type]

AlienTree's friend test

Create your own Friend Test here

take it easy, dont try too hard ;)

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Rankings(not posted):

#1 60% Jovena

eXclusive-ly

[some insights about the AlienTree]

AlienTree <3 s

[physical appearance]
-cheap clothes with style
-jeans
-BLACK

[gourmet]
-mr bean (ss has 1 in its sch!)
(makes me feel so 幸福)
-GREEN TEA etcs...
-noir chocs (> 70%)
-laksa = divine ;)
-kimchi !!!!
(made by joanne)

[cultivation of mind + soul]
-books by Jodi Picoult
-books by Ha Jin
-music that fits the mood
(chinese/k pop)
-instrumental
-chirstian songs
-random poems
-新诗（esp 郑愁予）
-宋词

[beyond the surface...]
-to imagine what will the future be like
-lives in her 'self-created' 'perfect world'
-compose poems, chinese/english
(i hope you apprecaite and like them)
-literature + writing + art
(thats why i have this blog)
-to think alot, about unrealistic things
-imagine my perfect love story
(doesnt exists in real life ;( )

[people... ...]
-those who are truthful to themselves
-frank about their feelings + thoughts
-with brains, independent thinking
-have their own set of principle
-YOU who read my blog + comment




[this is a feaking random stupid post,
i must be crazy to have posted it!
so dotz lll... RANDOM-NESS]

A.Problem

i love to DAOz people
i got Attitude Problem

-beyond the surface-
(appreciate your effort)

M.O.M.H.

MelodyOfMyHeart
http://www.momh.org

my recommendation
something special about their webbie,
they have the instrumental version
for every song collected in their albums
(great for those who have fallen in love
with their accompaniment-like myself)
besides this, vocals are commendable ;)
there's feel and energy in their singing
side note: downloading is free

ratings : * * * * *

songs that are worth the time:
1.向耶和华唱新歌
2.到神的祭坛
3.耶和华是我的力量
4.我只仰望你
5.大海中的道路
6.敬拜万世之王
7.主爱滋润我心
8.主我单属你
9.你是我生命亮光

J.O.Y

J.esus
O.thers
Y.ourself

-adapted from 'Plain Truth'
by Jodi Picoult

sion

《我一生的主宰》 [highly recommended song ratings:*****]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HeIU1VIuZRc&feature=related

for more sion presbyterian church videos
search : ongsion

youTube

i'm on youTube!

-*faintz*-

twins ;) ;)

to my beloved twin cousins
(Karen & Judy)
HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY!
all the best for PSLE!

brains.gone?

MONEY $ and BEAUTY makes the world goes round
where have the BRAINS gone to?

-ugly truth-

irony

by right...
i should be looking forward to it
i should be so excited to the extend
of dreaming of the day to come
i should be making plans, so many of them

but... ...
everyday i fear
everyday i psycho myself
everyday i choose to occupy every sanity
everyday i pretend i'm still living in january

i feel like i'm back to being a really tiny little kid
taking my first of everything the world has to offer
fearing everything that i come in touch with
like the bubble will burst at my slightest touch

every step i take i fear
get me out of here
bring me back
walk with me!?!

little Tree

i hug my little roots so tightly and cry

i will never comprehend your actions
what more your thoughts?
(make me understand? will you?)


-surrender-

cookie monster

i
remembered...
those days... ...
we spent our afternoons eating roti prata,
walk the slow long road home after school,
talking about the days to come soon,
fear the future that awaits for us.
'what if we failed O levels?'
're-take? really?'
you always asked me that.
and i always told you,
'you can do it!'

but... ...
every year,
at this point of time,
i will think of you again,
over and over.
i wonder,
where have you gone to?
after results were released,
i've never seen you again.
how have you been all these while?
someone told me you retook,
i choose not be believe,
but why shun away?

you
said we are good friends,
if so, i'll be there for you
even if you are not good
i will still choose to listen
choose to help you through.
but never never
did i hear from you again.

today,
is your 20th birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ;)
(miss you always,
ever waiting for you
-joanne.c)



-AMANDA ANG @ cookie monster-

Facade

are You a cheater after all?

密奏

每个女生心中
都有老天给的一份密奏
而它不到时候是不会揭晓的
当遇见对的人
这密奏的答案便会揭晓
揭晓后就不会改变

-命中注定?-


(取自：四大名捕 之 水芙蓉）

《风筝》

我把所有的怨恨
寄托在你长玄上
让它认意的飘离
随着风儿，雨点的摧残
葬送吧！

你飞得高高的
望之，愿之，
带我离开.
带我到无人间
忘我，忘!

一切将回到原点
不留任何痕迹
只留泪水，谎言
漫长，漫长... ...

失去的不能重来

rain...

i pray for a heavy rain to pour upon me
let the rain soaked deep into my skin
flood the place to ooze out all the anguish
thus, i will forget who really is crying,
the sky, or me?




-not worthy-

.可惜不是你.

*这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉歌

像昨天 今天同时在放映词

我这句语气 原来好像你转

不就是我们爱过的证据

*差一点 骗了自己骗了你

爱与被爱不一定成正比

我知道被疼是一种运气

但我无法完全交出自己

*努力为你改变

却变不了 预留的伏线

以为在你身边 那也算永远

仿佛还是昨天

可是昨天 已非常遥远

但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

*可惜不是你 陪我到最后　

曾一起走 却走失那路口　

感谢那是你 牵过我的手　

还能感受那温柔　 　

*那一段 我们曾心贴着心　

我想我更有权利关心你　

可能你 已走进别人风景　

多希望 也有 星光的投影　

*感谢那是你 牵过我的手　

还能温暖我胸口

-fish leong

Ridiculous

most tormenting day

if i could erase this stupid day from
every single year of my life,
i absoultely will!




-I DONT NEED IT!-

appreciate?

100 posts
(2007 + 2008 entries)

as a nobody appreciate blogger
i've sincerely contributed my literature

mask.masked?

if you spent your life
concentrating on what
everyone else thought of you,
would you forget
who you really were?
what if the face
you showed the world
turned out to be a mask
... ...with nothing beneath it?

adapted from '19 minutes'
by Jodi Picoult

主的小孩 ;)

主的小孩大家都来赞美
赞美主，主是爱！

i.era

its the worship of the I era


-too worldly-

big <3

my brain is getting really random recently.
for no reason, i will think of the friends i have
the times we spent together,
the laughter and tears,
the memories shared...

well
to all you
GREAT PEOPLE out there
... ... ...
THANKS,
BIG <3 TO ALL OF YOU ;)

fatZ

who wants to grow fat together with me?
(i'm feeling fat!)



-tell me if you wish to grow fat with me-

别

如果我想的和你不同，
请别认为我是错的。
如果我的想法和你的有所差异，
请别强求我和你苟同。

有一天你会欣赏我的不同之处。
每一个人按着自己的性格漫步人生。

(credits : jovena's blog entry
dated may 26 2008)



-this is something i must learn-

kimchi.!!!

this is my FIRST successful kimchi,

after somewhat like wasting 2 cabbages!

looks good?

wanna place your order?

call me!

TASTED TOTALLY DIVINE

FINGER-LICKING GOODNESS!

-tune.

play a piece that tells my story
play a tune that sings my soul

OreO

i'm crazy over chocolates
especially those noir bitter ones
BUT,
i must say, this choc bar is DIVINE!


side note : eating chocolates is GOOD
fot your health, but they must contain
70% and above of cocoa to make it
NOT sinful, instead HELPFUL
(anti-oxidants [loads of them])

affinity

how long more do i have to
forgive and compromise?
how many more times
must i continue to put
myself in your shoes
and think from your
perspective?
when will you start to
mature and think from
my position?

when will i stop helping you
find excuses?
when will the promise you made
come true?

i'm tired of this
what isit that is making me
hold on there for so long?
fear of losing?

then,
when i thought i was brave
enough to let go,
let my life get back into
its original monotone
i'm being put to test - again




-i'm not your symbol of victory-

little.odd.forest

i'm smitten by this brand!

Museum.

my blog is a MUSEUM
welcome to the museum!
please feel free to look at the
artifacts in my 6 months old
museum (",)



-visit the heritage NOW ;)-

arts.art

'i'm considering lasalle too'
'what course?'
'arts management'
'huh? art? can do what?
art no use !'

there goes it.
the burning fire,
the growing desire... ...
phoof!
ALL GONE

arts management is not all about
performing arts and visual art
ITS MORE THAN THAT!
its management of the Art
learning how to be a tool,
between the artist
and the public
to bring the 2 together
so that each can appreciate
one another
I'M THE TOOL

i believe... ...
as the nation starts to prosper
in various aspects of develpment,
especially economical growth
and rising standards of living,
Art will be more appreciated.
Arts, Art, Culture... ...
they are the foundations that
human civilation is built on.



to those who fought their life
in defence of their love for Art
i SALUTE you

random-ness

part i
recently many people have been smiling at me,
saying it over and over again,
'once upon a time, that little girl, this short,
is now a big girl, so tall (i'm not), going to university!
time flies... .... .... (blah blah blah)'
i look at them, all i could do was smile bitterly.
yes, time really flies, i'm now here, stuck,
i want to be a 3 year old kid again!
i'm going university? maybe not???
I DONT KNOW! - UNCERTAINTY

part ii
i seriously LOVE <3 this blog of mine!
^5 to dearest big cat, she loves it too!
in this space of mine,
i just want to be honest,
be frank with what i think,
be free with my expression
sometimes, i feel that i have put on
the mask for too long, tiring,
its here,
that i want to face myself truthfully,
be it love or hate me,
I AM JUST ME!

part iii
its just plain crazy-ness up in my brain,
i simply desire too badly to be a Tree!
nevermind the deforestation,
the effects of global warming,
and what have you... ...
that people poke fun at me for,
i think its the -----------
GREATEST AMBITION of times!
will i ever be one?
silly-ness (",)

part iv
this it MY life,
i should live it the way i want!
this road,
i decide how i will walk it
but... ...
why am i so concerned
of how others will perceive me?
i hate this way that i am geared
i wish i could be daring enough,
for my dream, for myself,
do what i want,
nevermind what other people think!
at this rate,
i will live life the way people want.
where is this LIFE that belongs to ME?
FIND IT BACK!!!

part v
just a little more honesty...
for a long long time,
when i lost count days,
i kept all emotions far away,
in a long forgotten vacuum
within me,
for fear of_____,
life was a peaceful,
emotionless ride... ...
but,
i'm INSPIRED!
REVIVED!!!

_.将军令._

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

我是个小兵我绷紧了神经

在战场上拼命听谁在发号施令

将军在微醺他方向分不清

西方人念经他全都听

不同的肤色说不同的话语

相同的节奏有不同的旋律

自己的文化要自己来说明

自己的舞台有我们自己顶

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

将军追流行他全身都Bling Bling

学西方人念经忘了自己先生贵姓

他们满口 check out 想叫他 get out

我是个小兵却乐天知命

在你的世界学你说ABCD

在我的土地对不起请说华语

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对 我们有种

我知道对 我们敢冲

我知道对 骄傲的龙

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

-Kenji

-是华人就要会说华语！-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2r4cemoom-Y&feature=related

4: JOANNE

one last time,
not for the name,
not for the fame,
not for the glamour,
but,
for the spirit,
for the desire,
for the passion,
for ME!

-you are the ONE-

nus.ntu

one of the so called TOP "cream"
universities in Singapore... ...

GOSH!!!

1. efficiency is LOW (very)
(considering nus still has the guts to
send me survey regarding the entire
admission process, i think it failed
just too badly-cant be bothered to
look at the survey. i haven heard
a slightest noise from them regarding
my application and i actually checked out
my application status online, which they
only state : 'processing application',
thats all! come on, i also know that!
more details? wont that make it?)

2. totally not presentable. UNGLAM
(the acceptance letter ntu sent me
was no difference from the giam cai
i love to eat! thats in comparison to
smu's which was beautifully printed
with the picture of its fac students on it,
and a BIG red 'CONGRATULATIONS'
sitted just above my address)

3. NO follow up
(ntu does not have any tea session
or what-so-ever to tell you more about
what you are being offered, contrast this
with smu's invitation to a tea session with
the dean-i'm so going for it!)

4. grade 2 potential citizen, HECK CARE
(looking at how nus and ntu does things
it makes the applicant feel like :
'you do not mean anything to us'
'you are just another statistic, REALLY'
smu makes you feel welcomed
right from the moment you open their letter,
they make you DESIRE to be part of them
they simply make you wanna say :
'i'm so loving smu!')

5. ineffectiveness = CMI
[IT not savvy-nus]
(nus webbie is horrid! it took me
ages to find where is the link to
the online application form is hidden,
lots of time wasted here seaching!
to make things WORSE!!!
application online did not state that
there is a time limit for the application
to be done within, thus, resulting in
MANY people having to redo the
application over and over again
just to get it through the
system-another total waste of time!)

6. NO standard (std : 0)
(i cannot fanthom how on earth ntu
CS chooses their students!
(if you want to know the 'juicy' details,
ask me, i'm not going to state them here)
but bottom line is i have my portfolio,
as they wanted, i did constructive research
to prepare myself for the interview,
but THIS is what i get!
NTU I KICK YOU OUT!!!)



-try harder!-

.为你写诗._

愛情是一種怪事
我開始全身不受控制
愛情是一種本事
我開始連自己都不是
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智為你寫詩
為你靜止為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

愛情是一種怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情是一種本事
我在你心裡什麼位子
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事為你
我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子

-Kenji


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tr1H4X-_6Tk&feature=related

Tree

'I WANT TO BE A TREE'

ever since i lost count of years and days,
i accquired the phobia of every little thing
as hours turn into days and days into months,
my desire to become a Tree increases...

i want to be a tree,
i want to stay put here,
watch the changes that
takes place around me,
not wanting to involve in
any bit of this world.

i want to be a tree,
long forgetten...
as time passes.





-tree, forgotten-

残缺.-

过了好久好久，我都不曾说过... ...
有人说，坠入爱河的人，会变成诗人
我却不曾为我的爱情写下任何的诗歌

人们说，恋爱最为甜蜜，
回忆的储存箱里--必备
有人可以为爱情的每个细节
写下无数业的日记.
为结果，无限等待，
为特别的你，牺牲又牺牲,
只因为--爱你

而我？
没有什么说得上的回忆.
没有一起看电影，
没有在落日的海边散步,
没有牵手，在天幕下许下许多的未来,
没有眼神交汇，说出朝暮的相思情感...

只有>>>
所有的思念只留在脑海中,
所有的情感只埋在最深处,
一切的一切只遗忘在无声中,
让空白格去填满它... ... ...



我残缺的爱情--葬送吧！

concept?

to me, LOVE is a extremely abstract concept
i cannot understand the nature of this little being

what mystical power has it got?
to attract practically every soul to it,
to forgive and give chance again and again,

more so,
for Him to come in human form,
died for our sins on the cross,
resurrected on the 3rd day,
to give YOU eternity live!

whats the worth of us?
he choose to be my friend willingly!
thats the JOY of the LORD in ME!!!



-power of LOVE-

旋奏

每个人心中都有首小乐曲
当有人的节奏和你一致时
心会知道，非他莫属
如今，谁在弹奏我的乐曲呢？


-期待?-

maid_

i think this vocation is 伟大！
though its unglam,
looks low-class,
but i SALUTE them
totally!!!

reason being:
i really fail it with a big F!
i like to get things done once and for all,
but house chore is not this business!
you have to sweep the floor everyday,
mop the house every other day,
clean the toilets once a week...
you name it, they have it
i cant tolerate having to do things repeatedly!
and thanks to everyday's dish washing
my hand's skin is peeling!
but its only my fair part (its ok!)

every since we stop hiring maids,
i learnt how to do the house chore,
how to cook my own meals,
how to do things double my mum's speed
it all seems part of my parents' plan,
to train me, before....(you know what)



-gambate!-

lasalle

10.3o am - Lasalle College of the Arts
Arts Management interview

(10.20am i was still stuck in the cab,
with the uncle not knowing where
Lasalle is, and neither do i !)

2 parts to the interview
1. 1 hr written test
2. 30 mins interview
(if you thought its easy chicky
THINK TWICE!
this is MORE challenging
than WKWSCI's)

anyway, none of my research helped
he dint asked me anything related to
Arts organisation in Spore.

i glanced at his mark sheet
there was 1 'poor' tick
and lots of other ticks down the same column,
they might be 'agree' or 'average'
i think its the latter.
anyway, i've tried my best,
the decision is in them.



the interviewer kept saying this :
'you must have had lots of passion in
Arts Management to have applied it'
[good sign?]






-all the best ;)-

父亲

我们一起看电视。。。
电视银幕上的画面不很精彩
无聊之极，
偶然睨视了父亲的侧边

原本
在我记忆中是捐膀魁俄的父亲
如今似呼消瘦了许多
不再像当年，
倚在床边给我讲故事的爸爸

‘你还喜欢听那些故事？’
‘嗯，19年来，不曾厌倦过，
还想再听老爸讲那些
鳄鱼故事哄我睡觉！‘
‘爸爸老了！’
‘没，是你长大了！‘


-回到从前-
[爸爸不要老！！！]

CS

'you are invited to an interview at WKWSCI'

9+ am :
i reached the blue glass building
its my first time there
potential seniors were all in black
i felt out of place
(dad asked : is there no one you know of?
there are so many people here!
honestly, none!)

10.30am :
'those with blue round stickers,
may enter the CS LT1 for the written test'
6 printed pages, 2 sections
1. current affairs (MCQ)
2. article + qns (comprehension?)
(1. qns ranged from spore, to international,
to ad industry, to organisation, to directors...)
(2. qns were really challenging,
break down the article into pieces
and analyse it carefully before answering)
duration 40 mins

11.40am :
split into groups according to your interviewers
LUNCH time! delicious food!
pasta, pineapple rice,...
(i cant rmb what else they served,
but Dad approximated its $10 per head)
CS is generous ;)

12.40pm :
brought to holding rooms
met more seniors,
who kindly gave us tips
on how to make a cut above the rest
for our interview
thanks ;)

1.00pm :
brought to interview room (lvl 3)
group interview format
2 profs : 4 candidate
1 male prof : 1 female prof
1 male candidate : 3 female candidate
'intro yourself, why CS? what of CS?'
'what are your goals in life,
excluding career aspect'
'what ad left an impression on you?'
'i'm sure you did research on ad,
tell me more about what you know?'
'any questions for us?'

1.30pm :
end of interview
bye bye!



personally i think its better than
the SMU school of social science's


IN! PLEASE!



-WEE KIM WEE's SCH OF
COMMUNICATION AND INFORMATION-

NIE

i now can fully understand
why the government has to give
loads of incentives to keep the
influx and prevent the resignation

i cannot fanthom what
kids of today are thinking
they take things for-granted!

anyway, at this rate that i'm going
one fine day i will get beaten up
without knowing why.



to the youngsters out there :
treasure this chance that
you can still study in school!

诗.虚

为你，不再写诗

social science_

9.30am ... ...
'tell me more about yourself'
'tell me what you know about mas selamat,
and your opinion regarding this incident'
'is there anything you want to ask us?'

they asked me THESE!
totally speechless after the interview ended
absolutely no comments to make now
(dont ask me if i did well,
I DONT KNOW!!!)

-TRUST_

量

爱要如何测量有多深？
情要怎样计算有多浓？

-数学不好-

100

100 views!
approximately 1 view/day

as a blogger, i've come THIS far
(",)

.-空白格-.

爱很小
情似虚
欲放弃
已离开
信不在
伊独泪
夜漫长
梦尽碎

-爱.恨.难-

growing

GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY.
GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.

We make a Living by what we get,
We make a Life by what we give

070308

drew all anxiety and fear to an end,
with the pink slip that i feared to peep,
all your grace and blessings
are beyond mere words could express.

once again, what small faith i have in you,
yet you gave me more than what i deserve


-give thanks with a grateful heart-
[你是信实，恩典，听祷告的主]

证明!

情愿相信你依然是纯真的,
所以希望从心宽容你,
再给你一次机会,
证明给你，给我... ...
我对你有信心


举白旗时，请礼貌上说一声

回

这是报应，报应！

古代

我好像是古代的人，
活在这不属于我的现代社会里
我不能理解这时代人们的思维方式。
我活在那自我设立的美好幻想世界里
而它，在现实中是揉碎的梦... ...


-形影相吊-

我只需要
有人肯定我，挺我
很难吗？

恋爱

从古至今，多少人恋爱过... ...
恋爱似乎成了许多年少灵魂的渴望,
如蛾一般，茫然的扑过去，
却不从知道未来会带给他们什么...

年少轻狂，我也不例外
但，回首过去,
或许我不宜恋爱... ... ...

对恋爱的态度，一开始就错了.
还搞不清楚爱情恋爱是什么.

许多许多，我都还在学习...
学习如何包容，宽容一切，
学习如何无私的付出，
学习如何专一... ...

一次次的试验，
磨练着我,
使我成长!

[小妹加油!]

小妹

想永远当小妹，
可以再犯错，再学习

-不想长大-

change

If you don't like something,
change it.
If you can't change it,
change your attitude.
Don't complain.
---Maya Angelou

矛盾

当人拥有时就常怨天尤人，
到后来失去了才悔不当初。

-愚昧-

闰-290208

四年一次的今天，
我期待心动的节奏！

-女生唯我独尊-

痛彻心扉

虽然一点都不重听,
但我情愿接受你说的,
只因是好朋友所相信你是对的.

但,这一次
痛彻心扉
我要改

我不会再犯同演的错
下一次不会再有所谓的‘实习’
这一次我会更勇敢地接受
不管缺点是什么
看重优点！


-心动?-

速

有些事情发生的太快了
小妹妹的小脑袋不能接受与理解!

-救命!-

小宝宝说:

比如说你很烦恼
每次爸爸妈妈在讲话的时候
你发表自己的意见总会被妈妈呵斥：
“大人说话小孩不要插话”，
对此你很无奈也很不开心哦。
你把你的这个小小不开心告诉小宝宝，
小宝宝会教你：
“姐姐，以后你和你的小朋友讲话的时候
要是你爸爸妈妈插嘴，
你就对他们说
‘小孩讲话大人不要插嘴’。”
是不是很逗，让你忍俊不住。

日期-10.06

太阳*幸运之轮
代表人物：伊莉莎白*赫莉
情绪起伏很大，
脑筋灵活；
喜欢寻找高度的刺激和变化；
精力充沛，追求完美；
喜欢冒险，了解人性。
优点是热情、敏感，
相当了解和关怀别人；
有很好的直觉能力。
缺点是过於情绪化，
喜怒无常，
自己也分不清因扰的来源.

-somewhat i agree,
if you know me well enough,
you will agree too-

原则

因为不想违背我做人的基本原则
所以才选择了无情无义.

-忤逆,背叛?我做不到!-

.测试-

1.清纯向成熟你走了多远?
测试结果:
从里到外都清纯的感觉
你是那种从内心到外表都清纯的人类,
因为你从小就把自己保护的很好,
不让外界的世俗侵犯了你自己的内心
和你自己的性格、人格。
与其参与到复杂的人际纷争中去,
你宁可自己悄悄的坐在角落里听着流行歌曲。
现在人群中你这种性格的人少得不能再少了,
所以你将得到很多异性的倾心,
想一想,谁不想要一个脱离世俗的伴侣呢？

2.被坏男生盯上指数
测试结果:
坏男生吸引指数70%
你是个温柔、随和的人，
给人一种如邻家小女孩般的亲切感，
所以不论男女老少都喜欢你。
由于你的单纯、可爱让大家觉得你是稀有动物，
因此忍不住给你特别待遇，倍加疼爱，
所以你的人气指数很高。
由于你具有一种特殊的魅力吸引男生，
让好男不禁想靠近你保护你，
让坏男忍不住都想逗逗你，甚至占你便宜，
在你不知不觉中跌入他的爱情魔掌之后
便对你予取予求。
而对爱情专情的你却再也离不开他，
即使为他浪迹天涯也无妨。
所以这类型的人多属黑社会大哥旁边的女人，
你的命运好坏可说是完全掌握在男生的手中。


-oh, so pathetic!-
(i'm really like that?)

无情指数

测试结果:
你是属于“假使自己对他忍无可忍时，就会快斩情丝型”的人，
你的无情指数有80%。

有些...

有些缘分注定是没有结果的，
有些人是注定要错过的，
有些事注定是要遗憾的，
曾经看见过一段文字，
错过一个人最可怕的方式,
就是你坐在他的旁边,
却不知道你永远都不会拥有他…
…或许这些想起来以后还是会心痛,
还是会难受,
但也只能接受这个事实,
面对这个现实,
接受这个遗憾,
这也是成长中的代价,
是青春中的波澜,
是年长后怅惘的回忆,
是人生中积累的财富.
遗憾是揪心的.
但也是这样,
能让彼此留下最美的记忆.
梦总在梦醒前最美好...


-credits :
jovena's blog entry
dated 061207-

惑.迷

最起码那在我有限的智慧中,
我认为是最妥当的做法.

错了可以重来吗?
有些事注定不能重来...

插曲

每一个人都是我生命里一段美丽的插曲.
留下美好的足迹,伴我成长,学习.
每一段路都是荆棘密布,
为了是一次次的感动...

你不要流泪,伤心... ...
因为我也只不过是一段小插曲
时间会冲淡一切,让一切回到原点...

留住回忆,忘了我.

曾经

拥有过，如今将会放开
勇敢过，如今要更坚强
因为你.. ...
我们都要学习成长成熟
[或许我一开始就不懂得]

滴血... ... ...

情人节

因该是单身一人过的
爱情不需要什么所谓的'情人节'
都是商家的诡计

-虚伪-

独

惯于与单调黑白色为主题.
平淡,忧郁与我形影相吊.
长期处于落寞当中,
不清楚如何去微笑,
更不懂得如何应付'悦'的心情.
对于这人们奢想的境地,
我也曾渴求过..
只不过, ... ...
我宁可习惯这一切,
也不想安逸于'甜'当中,
恐怕到那日来临时,
忘了如何在苦楚中
处之泰然.

雇用?

谁敢雇用我???

当临时员工, 不到一个月,
就把shredder弄坏了!
(修理费好昂贵哦!)
我搞什么鬼啊?

你说的对,
傻乎乎的, 老做错事
真是该打! 该打!

要改要改!
精明点!

- 精 明 -

比喻.我

冰,是最贴切的比喻.
就如冰山一般,
需要长年累月,
难以被融化.

又好比是蜡烛,
暴露在狂风当中,
难以点燃.
蜡炬成灰以前,
易熄灭.



-这就这样-

祝福

祝福加祝福是无数个祝福，
祝福减祝福是祝福的起点，
祝福乘祝福是无限个祝福，
祝福除祝福是唯一的祝福

文身

（小孩看见满身文身的男人）

小孩: '爸爸，他没有钱买画纸吗?'

对于>>>

自己，
要 求要高，严谨
起码达不到时，
不会太失望.

但,
对于他人，别无期望.

宁静.

-有说不尽的平静,安宁-

恨

我自己的善变!

MRT

i'm always meeting
OLD FRIENDS
somewhere, some time.

today, i met jasmine,
my sec 3 and 4 classmate.

its great that she's doing fine,
hope you enjoy your job,
and may your DREAMS
come true!

-keep in touch-

SMU

-Singapore Management University
(for those who are keen to join SMU)

Admissions Requirements
for applicants under the
New 2006 Curriculum and
seeking admission in 2008:

Good passes
-in at least three H2 subjects,
one H1 subject and Project Work
-A good pass in General Paper (GP)
or Knowledge & Inquiry (KI) *
-A good pass in Mathematics
at H1 level or equivalent
(not required for students who are applying for Law)
A minimum of "S" grade in Mother Tongue Language

SAT I: Reasoning Test*
is optional
(but an added advantage
for those with strong scores;
guideline for strong SAT I scores:
> 1300 for old SAT format and
> 1900 for new SAT format)

Interview (for shortlisted candidates)

*Applicants for Bachelor of Laws
must obtain a B and above for GP or KI.

Students with a grade of C and below
must take the SAT I: Reasoning Test and
achieve the following requirement:
Old SAT Format - A minimum score of 700
for the verbal component
New SAT Format - A minimum combined score
of 1400 for both Critical Reading and Writing Components

NAFA

-Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts

happened to stumble on
NAFA's ad on messenger.

they have pretty interesting courses
that kind of attracted me
eg.
Fine Art: painting and drawing
Arts Management

i thought maybe i could study there

but,
to my dismay,
i found out that i could only study
them at dipolma level,
though i'm an 'A' lvl graduate.

degrees / master ???
oh, fat hope.
i need a portfolio,
+ pass an interview/audio
+ pass NAFA tests...
4 criteria, i met only 1!

i'm so not going to make it into NAFA!
;(

-more options please-



NAFA open house:
310108 - 020208
10.30am-5.00pm

SQ.1

there is something not pleasing me

again, i'm back to square one!
dotz-

plain in its beauty

yupz, i know my blog is
real PLAIN and
seemingly boring,

but i choose to differ,
ITS OF QUALITY!

oblivious?

everytime,
when i try to give chance,
or try to prove myself wrong,
i'm down to square one,
making no difference,
still right here.

i hope i can say yes,
this is the f/s that i want to be at,
i've found it...
but again,
i'm held back,
not knowing what to
assure myself of.
uncertain__

if silence to people
quates itself to one of being
aloof and haughty,
then fine,
i shall just live with it

if people now wants
'instant noodle' style
quick-to-warm-up
people,
then i will tell you,
you will never
'cook' me.
wrong method

after 4 attempts,
i would say f/s time
in itself is worth it,
especially bible study weeks,

but after that?
what am i to expect of it?
nothing
only silence,
and more silence... ...

maybe it just goes down
to my own innate problem,
silence.

when people tell me to change,
get rid of the silence,
i firmly choose to stand by it.
because,
silence is my fortitude,
my depth,
my eyes... ...

maybe, maybe... ...



-in silence, i observe-

re-read

my handphone's msg inbox is finally
FULL at 3363 messages.
so that little orange/yellow envelope
goes on blinking 'inbox full'

natural reaction, delete old messages.
in the process of it (still in the midst)
i re-read all those msges that people
sent me over the past 10 months...

i realised we talked about lots of things
shared much of our thoughts with each other,
but somehow i cant seem to remember much
memories are brought back again.

to those who make my phone
SMILE with joy of vibration,
thanks for filling up my inbox!
do continue to fill it up again ;)

空回首.等待

两点，三点，四点，五点，六点... ...
广场时钟的秒针无情的嘀嗒着.
四十余岁的中年男子直望着眼前的大厦
似呼在等待着什么的发生.
而陪伴着他的是一只脱了绒毛的小熊.

来往的行人都对他投下异样的眼光
他已经在这同样的地方呆望了无数个下午
有的人猜想他是被情妇抛弃了
有的人说他是被人骗了财妻子跑了
有的人设想他是爱上了不该爱上的女人
但从来都没有人知道他的故事... ...

有个声音却不断的在他的脑海里重复地说：
‘这个臭东西还给你！别来烦我们了！
要我说几次女儿不是你的！
我们离婚吧！’





注：
这是高中时因爱亚的一篇极短篇小说
而得到灵感后所写下的创作，
与大家分享，希望你们会喜欢 ;)

妈

祝您
生日快乐
主爱满溢，
靠主常常喜乐！

南初新闻台

很怀念那时的一切
reporting,
filming,
editing,
studio... ...
好想再做一次的新闻报道!

alone

'its your own silence that keeps you alone'
-extracted from Jin'shei

(i'm anti-social ;) )

unknown-

by right, i should have things to blog about,
yet time and again i stare at the 'create post' page,
not knowing what to type

over the past few days,
change took place too quickly,
too quickly that time seems to have left me behind.
i feel like i'm stepping into a new chapter of my life.
what happened, whatever is going to happen,
make it beautiful

remember the tears,
remember the smiles... ...

aspire

(sat in for their lesson)

i watched how she presented her lesson,
listened to every word, every comment she made.
noted whatever was needed,

i am determined to reVamp practically everything.
1. the way lesson is being taught
2. the interaction between teacher and student
3. the kids mindset
4. be their friends, be the facilitator
5. simplify profound terms that i too at times
find difficult to comprehend
6. more talking done by the students
7. break down the stigma in them
8. make them thinking individuals
9. provide a platform for them to share
10. understand their needs

ultimately, their relationship with GOD
is the most important -
to foster one that is closer to HIM,
so that even when they are old,
they continue to live in YOU,
your words.

GOD,
if you take pleasure in the
works of my hand,
please guide me on
as i put all my worries unto you,
for nothing is impossible in you.

-i say a little prayer to you-
(listen to me, let me see your ways)

little girl

please help the little girl!
she does'nt know what to do.
she thinks what had been done was right,
but its slowly proving not.

confused, weary... ...
where to find the answer?

random thought

i should must as well live off better
in a remote island that is far far away... ...

180108

(any slightest speculation is NOT appreciated)


this day marks down many things,
things that you and i will remember,
memories that years later,
we might look back and smile once more,
saying 'it was right'

thanks to a good friend of mine,
if not i dont think i will have the courage,
to face you, to say what i wanted to.

from the time we first met,
to the times i ran at the sight of you,
to the times we would rather live
in the electronic world than reality,
to the times you faced facts and
dwell in your emotions...
to the times you continued to stand by
... ... ...

the ending he made for you on my behalf,
seems to have lost its original purpose.

i said my piece,
what i thought was meant to be an ending,
both for you and me
... ... ...

no matter what the outcome might be,
desirable or not,
let us be more informed of each other's decision
when the day comes... ...

to part or stay,
let fate and destiny decides it.
but most importantly,
let HIM mastermind it.



-让我这一生
行走在你的计划,恩典里
因我的好处不在你以外-

恩典 ；）

当我数算你的恩典时，
我只有感恩，再感恩。
你赐的，是出我预料。
-在你里面我从不缺乏-

南胜美

如果你会说得很不容易，
那你说我会听得很容易吗？

coincidence..

(today, i ending work early)

1.
the familiar spiked hair,
the same body posture,
the cannot be mistaken height...

i bump into him!
my LEP teacher - ng how wee.

once again, all those memories were brought back
those chinese literature lessons,
those consultation before A level,
those 新诗，现代小说，茶馆...
oh i missed them!!! !!!

recalling every bits and pieces of those times,
i will never forget
-how he explain every stanza of the poem in great detail,
-making every character in the play come to life,
like he was 老舍 the second.
-the way he challenged our thinking to think out of
what was given in the textbook,
to search for more indepth themes that
the author was trying to bring out.
-he definitely taught us more than those
i really want to attend his chinese literature lesson again!
I WANT!!!

2.
i thought it was my illusion or my pure imagination...
after so many years, since the last time we said good bye,
(about 3 years plus), we actually bump into each other
again, in the same train carriage,
what probability is that?
nice to meet you after so long.
hope you continue to do fine!
take care

怀疑

你可能也在怀疑，
为什么付出这么多，却只能眼睁睁的
看着我不停的注视着那扇似封密的门
而不曾回头看你撒落一地的... ...
-[默默的背后拿刀捅自己]-

-明白，对不起-

哪里？

很想说有你是幸福的，
可是幸福要怎么说？
因为你带给我的都是迷惑猜疑
安全感？
默默守候?

对不起

对 你 我是非常的不公，自私。
不能怎么样 只能说对不起
但再多的对不起都不能弥补什么。

对不起... ... ...

craZe

ever since the time i started working,
8.45am to 5.45pm, getting a hour lunch break,
in the what seems not-so-exciting building,
sitted by middle road... ...

i realised... ...

i could do many things during the 1 hr.
walking bugis village and bugis junction,
has become a 'favourite' past time...

any food that cost less than $3 will perk me up,
any clothes that could be bought at
nothing more than $10 will catch my attention,
any accessory that is priced at $5 will attract me.
(money doesnt come by easy! i seem broke all the time)

working is definitely NO FUN.
staring at the computer screen from 9-12, 1-6,
results in life-less eyes.
food and tea are the essentials to keep me awake
through all the what seems endless typing.

the magical words -
LUNCH TIME,
OK THANKS,
(big SMILE from the manager)
all inject ENERGY into me
because they = TIME TO GO HOME!

the most important thing i realised about myself:
my maintenance fee is NOT cheap
(i always thought i was *cries*)

MONEY isnt easy to come by,
to my daddy and mummy,
thanks for all that was spent on me!
i will work hard...
and ... ... (i guess you know what)

DADDY MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!

once,twice

if you can do it once,
there is no reason why
you cannot do it this time round.

and i will be left here
stupidly waiting for the same outcome?

FRIDGE

i miss her lame jokes SO BADLY!!!!
i missed those times back in nanyang
where boring breaks were killed with her lame jokes,
where waits for each A level paper to begin
was spiced with those laughter.
i want those times to come back!!!
she once said, 'if i dont know which uni i want to go,
i'll follow where you go! share the same hostel!!'
will things come true this way?
it will be cool, she's a great room mate to have!

to this special gift from God
(HE really answered both our prayers
for we both asked for the same gift)
i hope you are coping well with the job that you are doing now.
may all your aspirations and wishes come true.
dont forget the many little promises we made together!
may you continue to grow strong in HIS words.
may our friendship blossom in HIS love!

3 cheers to our friendship!

(MING SHI aka BIG CAT!)