wisdom tooth

this is definitely not the way i want my christmas to be, 

but it is so. 

if it all did not happened this way, 

i would be happily dating my boyfriend everyday, 

going to see the christmas lightings, 

going to sentosa for picnic... etc...

but what really happened was, 

i dated my wisdom tooth since 24 dec, and till now, 

i dont see it coming anywhere close to letting me off its hook. 

its been drowning me in endless pain, 

fatigue of the heart (is there such a description?)

cold palms and foot, 

headaches,

and most torturous of all, 

only those delicious christmas food could stare at me, 

alluring me to eat them, 

but all i can do, is turn my head away. 

please, would you stop this torture on me? 

i think its more than enough!

lonely

为什么总把伤心留给我？

为什么总要让我哭泣着入眠？
为什么， 留下孤单陪伴我？

为什么， 当下， 你看不见我有可能流泪的心？

为什么， 总说悔不当初？

slow steps

i'm really TIRED.

tired in this race, to chase the title. 

i've worked so hard, double the effort in fact.

but i dont see it coming.

i held the hope till the last moment, 

until everything just shattered in my eyes. 

this space, 

is filled with the smell of rust, 

of staleness, of sweat,

of disappointment, 

that only amplifies to the depths that consumes me.

i am lost. 

what is the next step?

how will i walk the last lap?

   

刺猬

就好象，
两个相爱的情侣， 想紧紧的拥抱在一起， 

但，因为情感的激情， 而涨起了刺，

把彼此刺得遍体鳞伤， 

但，再痛， 也还是要紧紧的拥抱着。