i wonder . 2010

as the new year draws closer by the second, i see many people around me have renewed hopes, new resolutions, and continued believe that the new year will be a better one.

i don't know since when, i have started to be weary. for the bleakness of the future, for the uncertainty that comes along with it, and with the knowledge that one cannot control time. the passing of 2009 into 2010 just brings one an inch closer to one's end. i clearly remembered once during a Sunday service sermon, the pastor threw us this question : if God wants to see you today, are you prepared to see Him? at that moment, i thought, i am not prepared, i don't think i will ever be.

i recalled the 31th dec of 2007, the me, filled with hopes for the new phase of my life, wrote a list of resolutions for the new year. looking back then, i wonder how many of them were realized. the one that i wished for the most never did became reality. in the new year, will this same wish be realized before my birthday, i wish it would, but please, let not history repeat itself. maybe it will not come true too! i'll leave that all to fate.

family ties

家人不是你能选择的叫家人，

家人是你没能选择的叫家人。

unanswered prayer

am i the answer to you prayer,

or are you the answer to my prayer?

tell me please!

arcade.bugis

if you are reading this post, be grateful.

meet ups with MingShi never fails to be fun.

2 big girls,

more like 1 close to being pro, and 1 cannot make it,

went to have some fun at Bugis' arcade.

they had so much fun and laughter there,

they felt time traveled backwards.

but that comes with a price;

my hands are spotted with ugly spots of bruises,

its painful when i write );

boo,

i somehow do miss my ugly handwriting after all );

这一生最美的祝福

这一生最美的祝福
演唱：赞美之泉
专辑：让爱走动

在无数的黑夜里
我用星星画出你
你的恩典如晨星
让我真实的见到你
在我的歌声里
我用音符赞美你
你的美好是我今生颂扬的
这一生最美的祝福
就是能认识主耶稣
这一生最美的祝福
就是能信靠主耶稣
走在高山深谷
他会伴我同行
我知道，这是最美的祝福

storytelling

i told you a story, you said you liked it,

you asked me if i liked it too, i said i seriously don't,

you asked why... ...

its easy for me to tell you the story,

its even easier for you to listen/read the story,

but its difficult and painful for me to experience it.

if our roles were swapped, i would say, 'i love this story!'

you then replied me,

there should be a good ending to this story,

and there's only 1 possibility to that.

唏嘘人生

昨天，母亲童年的好友打了通电话来慰问， 寒暄。

好久不见，朋友说，人事早已随着时间不断的变迁。

原本

期待着阿姨说她儿子已结婚，女儿正在念书的我，

却从母亲的口中获得完全相反的答复。

母女俩顿然都非常的错愕。

本来是童年的玩伴，

一起在月光下述说着对前途的憧憬，

如今，事过境迁，

两个半百的母亲回顾当年的心境，

原来他们的命运有了如此大的分歧。

正如他们的孩子，

当年还是小不点，在沙滩上堆沙丘。

如今，小我两岁的她，以为人母， 结婚了。

但愿她前面的日子不会过的更艰难。

promise to a little boy (;

teacher : hey, i promised you a heart right, here it is!!!

TG : (looked at the small heart) ermm i am not Chin Tiong

teacher : (shocked!!!)

TG : (looks at teacher with really sad doe's eyes)

teacher : (feels so extremely guilty) sorry!!! i get you another one to replace this ok?

TG : (still looking at teacher with really sad eyes) nods his head

the next day

TG's aunt saw his running around in church and told him that teacher was looking for him. TG ran to look for teacher. teacher took up a paper bag stuffed with something red inside.

teacher : i will give it to you later ok?

TG : nods his head earnestly, and ran and skipped along back to sunday school

after service, TG came looking for teacher before she could go look for him

TG : upon seeing the paper bag, pulled out the hands of the heart and started hugging it

teacher : there is something in front!

TG : (smiled from ear to ear upon seeing his name printed on the heart) hugged the heart even tighter and went off to show it off to his friends!

*so sweet!!!

Hort Park

Vivo City.Hort Park.Kimochi. Harbour Front

*i am the QUEEN!!!

*4 years for friendship and still counting!!!

*my new 'friend'

*'i want to put my head into the dragon's mouth!!!'

Jovena said i look like 十三姨 here, just that the umbrella wasn't lacy enough!

*Jovena complained that the lion had torn paws and belly. and blue me cant seem to say 狮子，老虎 always come out instead );

*hello tin tin. milo tin tin

*taken in some playgound. old already, we couldn't really fit into the little space of the boat structure ); those were the days... ...

*dino dino

*some little baby that i thought looks real cute (;

*i challenged her. if she can move the metal ball into the hole in the center, i'll treat her ice-cream. in the end, 2 big girls + 2 small boys made it possible!

*SMU jump!!! Jovena's favourite pose (;

*Alexandar Bridge that lights up at night

*fuwa-fuwa rare cheesecake from Kimochi. delicious! smooth like ice-cream, yet taste like cheesecake!!! <3<3<3!!!

胡志明市4

before i forget that my Ho Chi Minh trip was not 3 days but 4, let me hurry blog about it. but before i talk about the last day in HCMc, i gotta run to meet Jovena, else she will be really angry if i am late. will be back soon to talk about HCMc soon!!!

so hort park was great. had a super fun time with Jovena, but i have not forgotten about updating my trip to HCMc.

the last day in HCMc was free and easy. that is to say our official HCMc tour ended yesterday and today we are free on our own to explore the city even more.

in our desperate attempt to shop for more traditional Vietnamese souvenirs, we ventured out in search of An Dong Market. but to our greatest disappointment, it was just like our Bugis street, selling goods that can be easily found here );

after which, we went in search of KFC - to taste Vietnamese chicken. dad said its just as bad as Singapore's one or maybe even worse );

finally we were packed off to the airport, and there my mother and i scouted the ENTIRE airport looking for things to buy. not very successful though, but still managed to do some last minute shopping. since we dint eat much in the afternoon, dad suggested that we go fill our tummy at this Singaporean delight restaurant. we ordered chicken rice and laska... awwwwwwwww cannot be compared to our local ones!

so that marked the end of our 4 days 3 night Ho Chi Minh tour! (;

胡志明市3

since dear Facebook died on me 48 hours ago, and still is now, i cant do my favourite activity of stalking people and playing pblock. i am bored!!! so i shall blabber about Ho Chi Minh City tour day 3.

well actually it wasn't really HCMc's tour because early in the morning we left HCMc for Mekong Delta. 离开喧闹的城市，接近幽静的原野， 朴实的生活，仿佛落叶归根。that's the beauty of Chinese, more so the most simple, yet most accurate description of the Mekong Delta tour.

*map of Mekong Delta

back at noisy crowded HCMc, we visited City Hall, took photos with statue of Bac Ho. Ho Chi Minh was single and loved children, so they called him Bac Ho. after that we crossed a few roads to take a look at the opera house. it was a pity that we could only see it from across the road. well not as magnificent as those European ones, but still, had a style of its own.

well city tour ended with the last place of attraction - opera house, and to make the tour a complete one, we were dropped off at some shopping mall. when you see Adidas, Nike, Puma, Parkson, Samsung, LG and what not wherever you go, its just like pouring cold water on your hopes to shop for more traditional Vietnamese souvenirs. it makes me wonder, does having all these international brand names invade your country equates to globalization, modernity? that is also a question i leave you with to ponder upon.

prawning

today's my first ever prawning experience. interesting. caught 3 prawns. just nice, one each. but we kind souls gave it all to a little girl who dint managed to catch any prawns. for prawning pics, please see my FB.

love.ironically

"In my experience, falling in love has little to do with wanting someone. It is much more enticing to me to be wanted. ”

- Mariah White

Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult

got this quote out from Bing Liang's blog. it just kept me thinking. maybe it will do the same to you too. how ironic is love!

on wings

sometimes, we feel we are like this...

胡志明市2

day 2 of Ho Chi Minh City tour. before we get into the juicy bits of old monuments and commi-highness, lets first talk about breakfast in the hotel. we stayed in Equatorial Hotel, so naturally breakfast was there at Chi Chat Cafe. the day before, after dinner on the way back to hotel, i had such a strong craving for Nasi Lemak. i wished Alladin's magic lamp could grant me a simple plate of nasi lemak. the tour guide told us breakfast at the hotel would be American style. But but but, you just gotta hold your breath here... to my sheer delight, i found NASI LEMAK amongst bread, sausages and salad!!!! if you think the Vietnamese version will disappoint you, you are so absolutely wrong. the nasi was simply tasty and had the freshing aroma of coconut milk and panda in it. its like tasting the most divine, most traditional nasi lemak ever!!!

leaving you with the image of a tantalizing plate of Nasi Lemak, we move on to more historical part of HCMc tour.

first destination of the day was Reunification Palace. from the name of the palace, it outwardly suggests that this is the place where they signed the reunification treaty of the South and the North. this palace was also the place where the president of the south used to stay. long time ago, Vietnam was a French colony, and this palace used to be built according to the French architecture. however unfortunately, in the futile attempt to kill the first president of the South by dropping 2 bombs on the palace, half of it was ruined and the survived president ordered for the palace to be rebuilt. they say 风水不好. me being a Russian fanatic, would comment that on first look of the palace, it looks somewhat resemblance of the museum in Moscow's Victory park. lovely place. i would recommend it if you are interested in the period of American rule in Vietnam.

next on, to the place where i felt so sick in the stomach - the War museum. this museum displayed a collection of pictures taken during the Vietnam war. it is in here, that everyone who came, was brought back to the dark side of humanity. it was in here, one would ponder why men never learnt from the tragedy of wars. it is in here, that one is reminded that mankind's history could not be separated from war. it is also in here, that everyone of us is reminded of how fortunate we are that we have peace, and may this peace continue to stay for as long as possible. in the American troops' attempt to wipe out the Viet Congs, a kind of bio-chemical or more so like a kind of bio-weapon - Agent Orange was sprayed over forests that covered Vietnam. this agent was used to cause the premature wilting of vegetation. Agent Orange is nothing close to being as innocent as its name sounds. anyone who breathe in Agent Orange, will give birth to offspings that are highly deformed. pictures of deformed children lined across the wall made anyone who took the slightest glance felt their hearts twisted for a moment in pity and heartache.

leaving the heartache behind, and taking the insights taken away from the visit, we move on to Cu Chi Tunnel (pronounced as : Gu Ji Tunnel). Cu Chi tunnel is built in Cu Chi village some about 70km away from HCMc. CC tunnel was dug by Viet Congs over a span of 20 long years. the tunnel measured some 200km underground, differentiated into 3 levels, 3m, 7m and 10m underground, which eventually linked up and ended with the Saigon river. with the most primitive tools used to dig the tunnel, you will so in awe of the intelligence of the Viet Congs. for such strong instinct of survival and the display of great intelligence with the most basic tools, you just gotta take your hat off for the Communist. this reminded me of what my prof once said, people fight for many things, and ideology is one thing that people fight for and died for. how true is that.

well, how can a holiday be called a holiday without shopping?!?!!? the day could end no better than letting the biggest market in HCM - Ben Thanh Market babysit us for the evening!!! Ben Thanh market was comparable to South Korea's Dong Dae Moon and Nan Dae Moon.

*photo taken at War Museum.

'i set the dove free to find peace, may the souls who died in the war be brought to a peaceful war-free paradise!'

胡志明市1

this may be a little belated, but nonetheless... presenting Ho Chi Minh City to you!

the most part of last week was spent in Vietnam, Ho Chi Minh City.

its been a trip i seriously look forward to after Novosibirsk.

so here i am on the plains of Bac Ho's (meaning 'Uncle Ho' in Vietnamese) conquered land.

in a city populated by almost 8 million Vietnamese, there are about 4 million motorcycles and less than half a million cars, motorcycles filled every corner of HCM as we made our way towards the hotel. this was the first encounter with HCMc.

after a short rest, we were packed off to the national post office and the 100 years old red brick Church (they were just across the road from each other). the set up of the post office reminded me of Novosibirsk's but of course its at least 1 to 2 times larger in area and they have souvenirs shops there for tourists like us to quench our shopping thirst. for the BIG commi fan, there was a HUGE photo of Ho Chi Minh hung in the center of the post office, so its time to take some photos with Bac Ho.

crossing the road to the 100 years old Church, be surprise! its nothing of close to be a shabby place of worship, but one that looks somewhat like a red replicate of St. Andrew's Cathedral back in S'pore. a considerable amount of murals made the church walls come alive, but thank goodness, its not all over the place like the Orthodox churches.

dinner was well, how should i say it?!?! special? different? new experience? its the FIRST time i have ever tasted Vietnamese food, so the feeling was excitement and curiosity. well the meal was not exceptionally tasty, in fact i would say its kind of oddly blended. but what ever the case is, the bottom line i got out of the dinner was : Vietnamese can really decorate the dish so well to make the food look appetizing. for instance, they made a rooster out of an entire pineapple, without wasting any bit of it at all. (pics to come later, or when i feel like uploading them)

so with the lovely pineapple rooster for dinner deco, that marked the end of day 1 in HCMc.

旁观者

有时作为旁观者，

看看别人如何诠释他们的爱情，

是一种莫名的感叹。

感叹为何今日依然无法靠岸，

也许漂浮是种异样的幸福。

《画心》

张靓颖 - 画心
(电影《画皮》主题歌曲)
作词:陈少琪 作曲:藤原育郎

看不穿 是你失落的 魂魄
猜不透 是你瞳孔的颜色
一阵风 一场梦
爱如生命般莫测
你的心 到底被什么 蛊惑

你的轮廓 在黑夜之中淹没
看桃花 开出怎样的结果
看着你抱着我 目光似月色寂寞
就让你 在别人怀里 快乐

爱着你 像心跳 难触摸
画着你 画不出你的 骨骼
记着你 的脸色 是我等你的执着
你是我 一首唱不完 的歌

看不穿 是你失落的 魂魄
猜不透 是你瞳孔的颜色
一阵风 一场梦
爱是生命的莫测
你的心 到底被什么 蛊惑

你的轮廓 在黑夜之中淹没
看桃花 开出怎样的结果
看着你抱着我 目光比月色寂寞
就让你 在别人怀里 快乐

爱着你 像心跳 难触摸
画着你 画不出你的 骨骼
记着你 的脸色 是我等你的执着
你是我 一首唱不完 的歌

it never did occur to me

when i was young, it never came across to me that death would occur so close to home.

when i was 11, i realized for the first time that death could take away my love ones.

when i was 15, i realized that death could make me remember of what she used to do and imagined for a moment that next Chinese new year i could see her smile at me yet once again.

now 20, i realized for the first time that death would make me cry in regret because me realized all of a sudden there was nothing called 'next time i will have the chance to do/say it'.

posc 107

*Clara Portela came into class and distributed maps of Europe to the class

Clara : ok starting from you we will go one round, what country is this? (Clara points to some funny-shaped piece of land on the map)

Joanne : (points to something that look like 鸡脚 to her, surprised by the fact that she never realized that there was a country that looks like that) what country is this?!?!

Shawn : (takes a close look at the '鸡脚') Joanne, that's the sea! (i bet he must be laughing inside his head)

Joanne : (blushes inside out ); )

Clara : (points to somewhere just above Turkey) Some of you marked this as a country in your mid term paper

Shawn : Do you know what's that? LOL its the sea!!!

who am i?!?

you are not who you are,

neither are you who you think you are

you are what others think who you are.

who i am.who i am not

You should thank God for who i am

and do not be discouraged by who i am not

God Hears (;

God heard my prayers.

when you place Him before

everything else on your busy schedule,

He will reward you with

more than what you expect.

please hear those many other

little prayers i say to You each day,

especially that ONE!

(i dont know why i am so worried about it)

summer camp!!!

those were the summer camp times! miss them!!!

excited!!!

this is getting me really excited!

my Kuharka said he wants to set up a Russian eatery in Singapore!!!!!!

seems like he is serious about it!!!

INFJ-relationships

INFJs are warm and affirming people who are usually also deep and complex. They're likely to seek out and promote relationships that are intense and meaningful. They tend to be perfectionists, and are always striving for the Ultimate Relationship. For the most part, this is a positive feature, but sometimes works against the INFJ if they fall into the habit of moving from relationship to relationship, always in search of a more perfect partner. In general, the INFJ is a deeply warm and caring person who is highly invested in the health of their close relationships, and puts forth a lot of effort to make them positive. They are valued by those close to them for these special qualities. They seek long-term, lifelong relationships, although they don't always find them.

INFJ Strengths

● Warm and affirming by nature

● Dedicated to achieving the ultimate relationship

● Sensitive and concerned for others' feelings

● Usually have good communication skills, especially written

● Take their commitments very seriously, and seek lifelong relationships

● Have very high expectations for themselves and others (both a strength and weakness)

● Good listeners

● Are able to move on after a relationship has ended (once they're sure it's over)

INFJ Weaknesses

● Tendency to hold back part of themselves

● Not good with money or practical day-to-day life necessities

● Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism

● Have very high expectations for themselves and others (both a strength and weakness)

● Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship

INFJs as Lovers

INFJs are warm, considerate partners who feel great depth of love for their partners. They enjoy showing this love, and want to receive affirmation back from their mates.

They are perfectionists, constantly striving to achieve the Perfect Relationship. This can sometimes be frustrating to their mates, who may feel put upon by the INFJs demanding perfectionism. However, it may also be greatly appreciated, because it indicates a sincere commitment to the relationship, and a depth of caring which is not usually present in other types.

Sexually, INFJs view intimacy as a nearly spiritual experience. They embrace the opportunity to bond heart and soul with their mates. As service-oriented individuals, it's very important to them that their mates are happy. Intimacy is an opportunity for the INFJ to selflessly give their love, and experience it in a tangible way.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFJ's natural partner is the ENTP, or the ENFP. INFJ's dominant function of Introverted Intuition is best matched with a personality type that is dominated by Extraverted Intuition.

INFJs as Parents

INFJs usually make warm and caring parents. Their goal is to help their children become adults who know the difference between right and wrong, and who are independent, growth-oriented individuals.

Along the path to that goal they are generally very warm and caring, and are likely to treat their children as individuals who have a voice in family decisions. They want their children to be able to think for themselves, and make the right decisions. They also can be quite demanding on their children, and may have very high expectations for their behavior. Although they are generally soft-spoken and gentle, they may become stubborn and sharp-tongued at times when their expectations aren't met, or when under a lot of stress.

INFJs take their parenting role with ultimate seriousness. They will make sacrifices for the sake of their children without a second thought, and without remorse. Passing on their values to their children is a serious priority in their lives. Children of INFJs remember their parents fondly as warm, patient, and inspirational.

INFJs as Friends

Although the INFJ is likely to put friends behind their God and their families in terms of importance, they do value their friendships. As idealists who have strong value systems, INFJs seek authenticity and depth in their close relationships, and especially value people who can see and appreciate the INFJ for who they are and what they stand for.

The INFJ is likely to spend a lot of time socializing with family members. If they are religious, they probably are social with members of their religious community. After that, the INFJ may have friends represented from any of the personality types. They are usually extremely intuitive individuals, who will have no patience for anyone they feel is dishonest or corrupt. They'll have no interest in being around these kinds of people.

All kinds of people are drawn towards the INFJ. They are usually quite popular, although they may be unaware of it themselves, because they don't place a lot of importance on it.

The INFJ is valued by their close friends for their warmth and consideration, their new and interesting ways of looking at things, and for their ability to inspire and motivate others to be the best that they can be

INFJ-life

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

incomp_ _ _ _

the sentence have always been left incomplete

for you to fill in the blanks______

but you ever did.

妈妈说：

妈妈说：

不是说不过人就是输给人，

不是会胆小害怕就不比别人强，

不是慢三拍就是笨！

最忠实听众

想就这样一直只当你最忠实的听众，

我能吗？

over and over again

wonders how many time must i read those chapters over and over again just to write my EU paper?!?! it gets boring after awhile dont you know that?!?!

*imaging Clara face's is the motivation! - i hope!*

the missing puzzle piece

maybe, afterall,

i just might be more suitable for the

current

status quo.

А у моей любви

-А у моей любви-

А у моей любви - всего одно крыло
Я больше не летаю, мне тяжело
А у моей души - всего одна струна
И на ней играешь в полутонах

Только в ответ - тишина
Ты же знаешь, как эту тонкую нить
Соединить

Припев:
Ты коснёшься неба рукой
И почувствуешь свет моих глаз
Я буду рядом с тобой

Этот мир придуман - не мной
Но в назначенный день или час
Я буду рядом с тобой

Солёною водой и в небе тёмно-синем
Самой яркой звездой
Словно миражи:
Два сердца, две души

Мы слабые - для сильных, но свои - для чужих
Эта последняя жизнь
Ты же знаешь, как эту тонкую нить
Соединить

Припев:
Ты коснёшься неба рукой
И почувствуешь свет моих глаз
Я буду рядом с тобой

Этот мир придуман - не мной
Но в назначенный день или час
Я буду рядом с тобой

С тобой...

Против течения плыть
Ты же знаешь, как эту тонкую нить
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Припев:
Ты коснёшься неба рукой
И почувствуешь свет моих глаз
Я буду рядом с тобой

Этот мир придуман - не мной
Но в назначенный день или час
Я буду рядом с тобой

Ты коснёшься неба рукой
И почувствуешь свет моих глаз
Я буду рядом с тобой

Этот мир придуман - не мной
Но в назначенный день или час
Я буду рядом с тобой

Я буду рядом с тобой...

HIV-positive

many did not choose to be HIV-Positive,

but instead chose to live POSITIVELY with HIV!

- quoted from 'Living with HIV' magazine

Мосва!

Мосва!

Новосибирск 43 & 44

last 2 days in Novosibirsk.

farewell party + journey to airport

oh i love my mama Nastya

my fellow wonderful interns whom i will NEVER stop missing!

those lovely AIESECers!

miss all LOADS!!!

final last photo taken in NSTU!

last photo taken outside my little old apartment

totally miss my 'husband'

till the time we meet again, take care...miss all of you guys! (;

借口

当我正忙着为你编织借口

来哄骗我自己的时候，

请问那个你在哪里？

3 kinds of people

there are 3 kinds of people... ...

1. those who will plant a tree for the benefit of the next generation.

2. those who will not plant a tree for the benefit of the next generation.

3. those who will not plant a tree, but instead chop the tree down for his own selfish needs.

which kind are you?!?

my love will get you home

[My love will get you home]

if you wander off too far

my love will get you home

if you follow the wrong star

my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone

get back on you feet and think of me

my love will get you home boy

my love will get you home

if the bright lights blinds your eyes

my love will get you home

if your troubles break your stride

my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone

get back on your feet and think of me

my love will get you home boy

my love will get you home

if you ever feel ashame

my love will get you home

if its only you to blame

my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone

get back on your feet and think of me

my love will get you home boy

my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone

get back on your feet and think of me

my love will get you home boy

my love will get you home boy

my love will get you home

... ...

Karl Marx!

in some way or another, the world might just be working towards communistm!

'from each according to this ability, to each according to his needs'

it is important to focus on their ideas rather than the way these ideas have sometimes been utilized in the pursuit of political objectives.

beauty products i <3

some products i would suggest you to use too!

1. Asience shampoo

2. L'oreal ELSEVE anti frizz serum

3. L'oreal hot straight lotion

4. BB cream

5. Mentholatum Acnes moisturizer

6. Enchanteur body mist - Desire

7. Rexona women - sensitive

i love EU!

i love EU,

EU love me,

we are happy family

with a great big hug,

and a kiss from me to EU,

won't EU say EU love me too!

i love EU,

EU love me,

we're best friends like friends should be.

with a great big hug,

and a kiss from EU to me,

i know EU love me TOO!!! !!!

EU politics please be my friend!

be my best friend for at least the next 15 weeks!!!

Новосибирск 24

Week 4 day 24, 4 Jul 2009

Medveshka! (we were supposed to go there yesterday at about 4pm, but we couldn’t make it there in time)

Beautiful island in the middle of the lake. Just like what Kuharka said, everywhere is toilet, everything is for people. We slept in tents, used the woods as our toilets and burn wood to keep ourselves warm. It was a primitive experience.

I especially love the night. We sat by the fire and sang with the guitar and crack sunflower seeds. I made new friends, and just to name some of them, they were Bosch (I cant remember his actual name, but because he works with Bosch, so hence the nickname), Dema, Yura and Mich. (they are all AIESEC NSTU’s alumni)

婵娟底下

吉他玄中,轻声细唱

这是童话

醉也其中,痴也其中

两心玄谈,仿佛恋爱！

Thank you Bosch! (and Yura) (they got so nervous because I seem to have an energizer bunny in me and did not want to sleep) Thank you for the many many songs that you played specially for me, (from those that you wanted to sing for me, and for those impromptu ones that you sang to entertain me) thank you for taking care of me (lending me your tent, your sleeping bag and your pull-over), thank you for the car ride back, and finally thank you for respecting me.