in 2 day's time,
i'll be in my senior year.
this feeling is overwhelming, trying to burst free from within me.
i did something really stupid.
it was 1 july when i touched down in Singapore,
and BOSS (bidding) took place that same day.
in my tiredness and heckcare-ness, i bid for modules without checking their course outlines.
now, way after BOSS 1, 1A and 1B are all over,
when most (interesting) modules are fully taken,
i regretted my bids,
now i am yearning for modules that have no vacancies.
all i can do is hope some kind soul will drop them come monday,
so that i can get them in BOSS 2.
senior year... ...
it means i no longer have the privilege of waiting,
waiting another semester or more until the module that i want is being offered again.
it means now, or never.
chance, its the last one that i have now.
and i must admit,
after a semester of exchange,
i am no longer that courageous like before.
previously, it never occurred to me that there was such thing called 'difficult' module,
or rather, i pushed that idea out of my mind, never giving it a chance to invade and defeat me
or rather, i pushed that idea out of my mind, never giving it a chance to invade and defeat me
i bid for it, i just take it and do it irregardlessly.
but now, gone is this courage.
i have no guts to do my last political science elective,
no guts to face the first and last possible LAW module that i might take,
no guts to even take the compulsory CAT (excel) module,
and finally,
the intense fear of not doing well,
nullifying all the efforts i made to pull my grades above the 'safety' region.
so in the end,
i'm still such a sucker in the stomach!
i'm so disgusting!!!
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