grudges

someone,

few years back, 

back-stabbed me robbed even my last bit of trust in her.

just moments ago, 

i saw her status on facebook,

'respecting one another is important regardless is something you agree or disagree with,

shoudn't be too arrogant and label others, this is extremely disrespectful.'

in the furry of the moment, 

i wanted to disgraced her to pieces with my nasty comment, 

but i stopped.

i dont know what held me back,

maybe its the bible study session we had today,

that taught me and reminded me to love those who are not lovable. 

its hard, 

really tough.

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but i am still totally disgusted by you.

you dont deserve the slightest respect so to speak of,

for you never ever in the process recognised your fault 

and apologised for it.

how foolish i was, 

to even treat you as a good friend of mine!