big <3

my brain is getting really random recently.
for no reason, i will think of the friends i have
the times we spent together,
the laughter and tears,
the memories shared...

well
to all you
GREAT PEOPLE out there
... ... ...
THANKS,
BIG <3 TO ALL OF YOU ;)

fatZ

who wants to grow fat together with me?
(i'm feeling fat!)



-tell me if you wish to grow fat with me-

别

如果我想的和你不同，
请别认为我是错的。
如果我的想法和你的有所差异，
请别强求我和你苟同。

有一天你会欣赏我的不同之处。
每一个人按着自己的性格漫步人生。

(credits : jovena's blog entry
dated may 26 2008)



-this is something i must learn-

kimchi.!!!

this is my FIRST successful kimchi,

after somewhat like wasting 2 cabbages!

looks good?

wanna place your order?

call me!

TASTED TOTALLY DIVINE

FINGER-LICKING GOODNESS!

-tune.

play a piece that tells my story
play a tune that sings my soul

OreO

i'm crazy over chocolates
especially those noir bitter ones
BUT,
i must say, this choc bar is DIVINE!


side note : eating chocolates is GOOD
fot your health, but they must contain
70% and above of cocoa to make it
NOT sinful, instead HELPFUL
(anti-oxidants [loads of them])

affinity

how long more do i have to
forgive and compromise?
how many more times
must i continue to put
myself in your shoes
and think from your
perspective?
when will you start to
mature and think from
my position?

when will i stop helping you
find excuses?
when will the promise you made
come true?

i'm tired of this
what isit that is making me
hold on there for so long?
fear of losing?

then,
when i thought i was brave
enough to let go,
let my life get back into
its original monotone
i'm being put to test - again




-i'm not your symbol of victory-

little.odd.forest

i'm smitten by this brand!

Museum.

my blog is a MUSEUM
welcome to the museum!
please feel free to look at the
artifacts in my 6 months old
museum (",)



-visit the heritage NOW ;)-

arts.art

'i'm considering lasalle too'
'what course?'
'arts management'
'huh? art? can do what?
art no use !'

there goes it.
the burning fire,
the growing desire... ...
phoof!
ALL GONE

arts management is not all about
performing arts and visual art
ITS MORE THAN THAT!
its management of the Art
learning how to be a tool,
between the artist
and the public
to bring the 2 together
so that each can appreciate
one another
I'M THE TOOL

i believe... ...
as the nation starts to prosper
in various aspects of develpment,
especially economical growth
and rising standards of living,
Art will be more appreciated.
Arts, Art, Culture... ...
they are the foundations that
human civilation is built on.



to those who fought their life
in defence of their love for Art
i SALUTE you

random-ness

part i
recently many people have been smiling at me,
saying it over and over again,
'once upon a time, that little girl, this short,
is now a big girl, so tall (i'm not), going to university!
time flies... .... .... (blah blah blah)'
i look at them, all i could do was smile bitterly.
yes, time really flies, i'm now here, stuck,
i want to be a 3 year old kid again!
i'm going university? maybe not???
I DONT KNOW! - UNCERTAINTY

part ii
i seriously LOVE <3 this blog of mine!
^5 to dearest big cat, she loves it too!
in this space of mine,
i just want to be honest,
be frank with what i think,
be free with my expression
sometimes, i feel that i have put on
the mask for too long, tiring,
its here,
that i want to face myself truthfully,
be it love or hate me,
I AM JUST ME!

part iii
its just plain crazy-ness up in my brain,
i simply desire too badly to be a Tree!
nevermind the deforestation,
the effects of global warming,
and what have you... ...
that people poke fun at me for,
i think its the -----------
GREATEST AMBITION of times!
will i ever be one?
silly-ness (",)

part iv
this it MY life,
i should live it the way i want!
this road,
i decide how i will walk it
but... ...
why am i so concerned
of how others will perceive me?
i hate this way that i am geared
i wish i could be daring enough,
for my dream, for myself,
do what i want,
nevermind what other people think!
at this rate,
i will live life the way people want.
where is this LIFE that belongs to ME?
FIND IT BACK!!!

part v
just a little more honesty...
for a long long time,
when i lost count days,
i kept all emotions far away,
in a long forgotten vacuum
within me,
for fear of_____,
life was a peaceful,
emotionless ride... ...
but,
i'm INSPIRED!
REVIVED!!!

_.将军令._

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

我是个小兵我绷紧了神经

在战场上拼命听谁在发号施令

将军在微醺他方向分不清

西方人念经他全都听

不同的肤色说不同的话语

相同的节奏有不同的旋律

自己的文化要自己来说明

自己的舞台有我们自己顶

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

将军追流行他全身都Bling Bling

学西方人念经忘了自己先生贵姓

他们满口 check out 想叫他 get out

我是个小兵却乐天知命

在你的世界学你说ABCD

在我的土地对不起请说华语

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对 我们有种

我知道对 我们敢冲

我知道对 骄傲的龙

我知道对有什么不对

我知道将军说的话不一定对

我知道对或错我自己能分辨

请你安静点 请你安静点

我知道对有什么不对

我知道外国的月亮没比较圆

我知道 yo yo yo 不是我的语言

请你安静点 请你安静点

-Kenji

-是华人就要会说华语！-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2r4cemoom-Y&feature=related

4: JOANNE

one last time,
not for the name,
not for the fame,
not for the glamour,
but,
for the spirit,
for the desire,
for the passion,
for ME!

-you are the ONE-

nus.ntu

one of the so called TOP "cream"
universities in Singapore... ...

GOSH!!!

1. efficiency is LOW (very)
(considering nus still has the guts to
send me survey regarding the entire
admission process, i think it failed
just too badly-cant be bothered to
look at the survey. i haven heard
a slightest noise from them regarding
my application and i actually checked out
my application status online, which they
only state : 'processing application',
thats all! come on, i also know that!
more details? wont that make it?)

2. totally not presentable. UNGLAM
(the acceptance letter ntu sent me
was no difference from the giam cai
i love to eat! thats in comparison to
smu's which was beautifully printed
with the picture of its fac students on it,
and a BIG red 'CONGRATULATIONS'
sitted just above my address)

3. NO follow up
(ntu does not have any tea session
or what-so-ever to tell you more about
what you are being offered, contrast this
with smu's invitation to a tea session with
the dean-i'm so going for it!)

4. grade 2 potential citizen, HECK CARE
(looking at how nus and ntu does things
it makes the applicant feel like :
'you do not mean anything to us'
'you are just another statistic, REALLY'
smu makes you feel welcomed
right from the moment you open their letter,
they make you DESIRE to be part of them
they simply make you wanna say :
'i'm so loving smu!')

5. ineffectiveness = CMI
[IT not savvy-nus]
(nus webbie is horrid! it took me
ages to find where is the link to
the online application form is hidden,
lots of time wasted here seaching!
to make things WORSE!!!
application online did not state that
there is a time limit for the application
to be done within, thus, resulting in
MANY people having to redo the
application over and over again
just to get it through the
system-another total waste of time!)

6. NO standard (std : 0)
(i cannot fanthom how on earth ntu
CS chooses their students!
(if you want to know the 'juicy' details,
ask me, i'm not going to state them here)
but bottom line is i have my portfolio,
as they wanted, i did constructive research
to prepare myself for the interview,
but THIS is what i get!
NTU I KICK YOU OUT!!!)



-try harder!-

.为你写诗._

愛情是一種怪事
我開始全身不受控制
愛情是一種本事
我開始連自己都不是
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智為你寫詩
為你靜止為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

愛情是一種怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情是一種本事
我在你心裡什麼位子
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事為你
我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子

-Kenji


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tr1H4X-_6Tk&feature=related

Tree

'I WANT TO BE A TREE'

ever since i lost count of years and days,
i accquired the phobia of every little thing
as hours turn into days and days into months,
my desire to become a Tree increases...

i want to be a tree,
i want to stay put here,
watch the changes that
takes place around me,
not wanting to involve in
any bit of this world.

i want to be a tree,
long forgetten...
as time passes.





-tree, forgotten-

残缺.-

过了好久好久，我都不曾说过... ...
有人说，坠入爱河的人，会变成诗人
我却不曾为我的爱情写下任何的诗歌

人们说，恋爱最为甜蜜，
回忆的储存箱里--必备
有人可以为爱情的每个细节
写下无数业的日记.
为结果，无限等待，
为特别的你，牺牲又牺牲,
只因为--爱你

而我？
没有什么说得上的回忆.
没有一起看电影，
没有在落日的海边散步,
没有牵手，在天幕下许下许多的未来,
没有眼神交汇，说出朝暮的相思情感...

只有>>>
所有的思念只留在脑海中,
所有的情感只埋在最深处,
一切的一切只遗忘在无声中,
让空白格去填满它... ... ...



我残缺的爱情--葬送吧！