immersed

i am really immersed in His grace and blessings!

i ought to make a testimony of how Great my Lord is!

you know, this sem has been one of the most challenging sem.

i got one of the most irresponsible profs in my 5 sems in SMU,

i took 2 cores, 2 lgsts, thinking they were a good mix of difficulty,

but i was so wrong, each made me weary to such a great extend,

and well, having to juggle between study and relationship,

that proves to be the most challenging of all!

and of course, not forgetting my target this sem.

all these just made the sem less than easy going!

i remembered how i trembled after my ethics, and twc exam,

how i feared so much that i will fail them.

i recalled the day after my last paper, and the release of my twc grades,

how my dear boy tried to console me that everything will be fine,

but deep down, that fear nobody could ease.

i looked at the target setting table that i wrote,

how i hated to look at it because i might fall way below.

i worried till my heart and soul begun to wilt.

then that night in Medan,

i asked the preacher who share a room with me,

'how do i trust God?'

'Just take faith and throw away your logic,

He works in ways man's logic can never fathom'

that replied, i kept it in my heart and i did just that.

i prayed day and night about it whenever i could.

the days and weeks that followed,

i locked fear up in the deepest dungeon of my heart,

and welcomed faith and hope to be my guests.

i opened my heart, and happily busied

with church Christmas celebration preparation.

OASIS was meant to release our results last Friday,

but it was postponed till today.

i can still feel my heart pounding hard,

i can still hear my voice inside,

just saying 'Thank God, you listened to my prayers'

words cannot describe how much gratitude i have,

all i know, is i must share this amazing God with you!

not only did He helped me survive this semester,

He showed me if i trust Him,

and if what i want is what He pleases,

He gave it to me.

I hit my target,

and i got a decent grade for Coy law

to continue my 2nd major.

i have experienced this wonderful God again and again,

He never fails me, and i am blessed in His plan.

i urge you to open your heart to Him,

and experience this God in your life today!