美丽的梦， 可爱的梦

我是不是一个单纯的人， 

在追求着过于美丽的梦想？

还是。。。

如中国达人秀中， 

一位梦想追求者写下的歌词一样？

‘美丽的梦， 现实的笑话。

可爱的梦， 谁说会到达？’ 

set me on your wings, fly me to my dreams. 

za total hydration

once, jovena told me, 

there are 2 things your skin produces/need - sebum and moisture.

if you have oily skin, then you ought to lock in the moisture to keep your skin shine free. 

me, i have mid-day oily skin (new term i learn), 

and i've tried a variety of oil control products, which doesnt work, 

usually, about 3 hours staying out, a film of shine will develop by then, how uncomfortable,
because, it makes my fringe sticks together - oily hair! 

i even bought the super expensive hada labo in hopes after reading really positive reviews about it, 

but still, the difference made is not as significant as it claims '1 drop locks up an ocean.'

until i found za total hydration.

currently, i am using the gel one, (3rd from the left)

which i am writing about it because it really works.

i apply it on after applying hada labo (double effect i hoped), 

and i wear a thin layer of oil-control face powder over it. 

it keeps me almost shine free for as long as i am outside,
the bonus part of things, i see reduced pimple scar after just 2 days' of use!

so if you have oily skin like me, pimple scar

try this new za range. 

*****/5 stars!

dragon greets happy lunar new year

happy lunar new year to everyone who reads my blog. 

thanks for showing your support by always reading my boring posts.

if you do not want to spoil your mood, 

do not read any further.
(i warned you!)

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its such a lonely and quiet lunar new year, 

oh how it dampens all my high hopes of waiting for the new year to come. 

i feel like hiding under my blanket.

call me out from under the blanket when the lunar new year is over.

(if you were tempted and scrolled down, and now, you are feeling gloomy too, i did warn you!)

steps

as i take the final few steps of this chapter,

what emotions will make up the bookmark of this chapter?

its mixed feelings...

excitement to end this chapter, 

weariness to enter to next, 

for i cant see any clue, any guiding light. 

i am truly afraid, really.

but time does not wait, 

my legs are not allowed to stop.

continue walking is the only escape. 

i always encourage him to look forward, 

this time, 

its time for me to practice what i preach. 

i am truly afraid.

i know the points, 

from point A to point B, then to point C...

etc...

but who tells me how do i get from 1 point to the next?

or maybe it wasnt even meant to be from point A to B to C, 

but...

something else?!?!

who knows?!?!

Cath Kidston

dont you just love the vintage designs that Cath Kidston has?!?! 

they are my most recent 'loves'

sorry, but i cant control this current fascination over poka dots stuff. 

i'm feel so bad that i havent got a single new year resolution up on the list yet, 

instead here i am, adding more poka dots merchandise to my collection. 

so here's my collection :

1. unistyle fit in blue poka dots

2. Samsung Galaxy S2 phone casing in red poka dots by kate spade

3. poka dots phone button sticker in 6 different colours to match my casing

3. 2012 monthly diary in lilac poka dots

(kindly contributed by my bf, who cant stand my poka dots fascination)

4. poka dots agnes b. voyage bag in midnight green 

5. phone themes in various poka dots design.

6. and that reminds me, even my desktop wall paper is poka dots!

oh wells, they are so girlishly alluring, i cant help but to buy them!!! 

i just went google-ing for more Cath Kidston related websites and images. and i think i know why i have such a love for these designs now. simply because they add a tint of happiness, of liveliness, of colour, of rainbow, that is so subtle, it doesnt overwhelms me. i like the repeated excitement it brings me every time i see it. how does this feels like? i think i would reckon to say it feels like seeing or bumping into someone you like/love, or even simply a (long-lost) friend by pure chance. 

snowman

他是个病孩子，没有人肯陪他玩。

直到下了第一场雪，他堆了一个小雪人。

他问：“我可以抱抱你吗？”

小雪人反问：“为什么？” 

他说：“因为我喜欢你。”

小雪人沉默的投入他的怀抱。

下一秒，他听见小雪人轻轻在他耳边说：

“我穿越四季，只为融化在你的怀抱里，谢谢你敢与我相爱。”

wisdom tooth

this is definitely not the way i want my christmas to be, 

but it is so. 

if it all did not happened this way, 

i would be happily dating my boyfriend everyday, 

going to see the christmas lightings, 

going to sentosa for picnic... etc...

but what really happened was, 

i dated my wisdom tooth since 24 dec, and till now, 

i dont see it coming anywhere close to letting me off its hook. 

its been drowning me in endless pain, 

fatigue of the heart (is there such a description?)

cold palms and foot, 

headaches,

and most torturous of all, 

only those delicious christmas food could stare at me, 

alluring me to eat them, 

but all i can do, is turn my head away. 

please, would you stop this torture on me? 

i think its more than enough!

lonely

为什么总把伤心留给我？

为什么总要让我哭泣着入眠？
为什么， 留下孤单陪伴我？

为什么， 当下， 你看不见我有可能流泪的心？

为什么， 总说悔不当初？

slow steps

i'm really TIRED.

tired in this race, to chase the title. 

i've worked so hard, double the effort in fact.

but i dont see it coming.

i held the hope till the last moment, 

until everything just shattered in my eyes. 

this space, 

is filled with the smell of rust, 

of staleness, of sweat,

of disappointment, 

that only amplifies to the depths that consumes me.

i am lost. 

what is the next step?

how will i walk the last lap?

   

刺猬

就好象，
两个相爱的情侣， 想紧紧的拥抱在一起， 

但，因为情感的激情， 而涨起了刺，

把彼此刺得遍体鳞伤， 

但，再痛， 也还是要紧紧的拥抱着。