Friday, July 18, 2008

Perfect Match






















i recently just finished reading this
novel by Jodi Picoult.

there's a reason why i chose this
book cover, because, i love
the way he stares, like there are
deep thoughts in him.

Synopsis :
As a assistant district attorney, Nina Frost
prosecutes the sort of crimes that tear
families apart. but when Nina and her
husband discovers that their 5-year old
son Natheniel has been sexually abused,
it is her own family that is deverstated.
The world Nina inhabits now seems different
from the one she lived in yesterday;
the lines between family and professional
life are erased; and answers to questions
she thought she knew are no longer easy
to find. Overcome by anger and desperate
for vengeance, Nina ignites a battle that
may cause her to lose the very thing
she's fighting for.

Review:
I'm not a mother myself,
maybe i cant emphasize just
as well, but Jodi keeps you
questioning yourself through
out the novel, 'if i were Nina,
will i do it the same way?'
'is Nina the hero or not?'
Besides, the many plot twist
keeps you reading from
cover to cover, and even
when you have finished it,
you will look back, and admire
the characters for their
courage, for the bravery,
for the love they hold
so dear to their hearts.

Nina Frost - I admire her as
the mother, who, in the name
of Natheniel's protector,
will go to the extremes to
protect her 'life'-Natheniel.
Yet sometimes, you really 'hate' her,
and wished she just shut-up,
bacause the reader knows
she is wrong this time round,
she does not know what's
the best, but yet she
insists that she does!

Caleb Frost - This is one character
that i really love, through out the
novel, he seems like he din't care,
he appears like he never approved
to his wife's actions, he will do anything
just to stay away from this 'monster'
that has overtook his wife's form
one morning. Yet, at the end of the novel,
Jodi makes you change your
impression of this big man.
He proves his love, for his
wife, for his family,
through his silent actions.

Natheniel Frost - The little boy who
is more mature than other kids his age,
because of what happened
to him. Picoult carefully crafted every
detail of Natheniel so that readers could
see the incident through the eyes of this
5-year old, and understand his thoughts.
Moreover, Jodi also use Natheniel's
thoughts to question the theme and
key issues brought up.
Nina: 'Natheniel, you did something wrong,
but you are stilla good boy'
Natheniel: 'What about Gwynne?'
Nina: 'No, he did something wrong,
and he is a bad person'
Natheniel: 'What about you?'
Nina: ... (tight for an answer)

Patrick Ducharme - The police detective
in the story. This is a character i'm in a
love-hate relationship with. Love him,
because he will go the extra mile for Nina,
even if it meant that he will lose his job.
Hate him, because he always seems like a
3rd party in the little Frost family.
Seems a little extra sometimes.

On the whole, i will recommend this book,
with the rating of * * * */5*s

-go grab it!-

Thursday, July 17, 2008

.幸福.

只有得到过,才知挣扎的美好,
只有失去, 才明白曾经拥有的可贵



-幸福都在记忆里-


[取自,现在,吴淡如 著]


Saturday, July 12, 2008

this life...

i try sooo hard to please
YOU
i try to get into the top class,
i did it
i try to take higher chinese,
i did it
i try to get into top 10 JCs,
i did it
i try to get into the top uni,
i did it

you want me to learn piano,
i did
you want me to join choir,
i did
you want me to be pianist,
i did
you want me to not join camps,
i did
you want me to not go for prom,
i did
you want me to dress decently,
i did
you want me to give up squash,
i did
you want me to keep short hair,
i did
you want me the goody-daughter,
i did
you want me to not dye my hair,
i did
you want me to not be like other youngsters,
i did

you wanted me to give up nanyang for TJ
i stuck to my LOVE
you wanted me to give up chinese lit
i stand by my LOVE
you quitely wished i gave up art
i almost did
i feared i disgrace you,
i gave up my passion

all my life, i try too hard to PLEASE you,
but you choose only to see my flaws,
and nothing beyond that.
you are never satisfied with what you have
you always say i dont meet your expectations
but you never praised me when i really needed one
when can i just be JOANNE,
and nothing more than that?


-do the extremez-

Thursday, July 10, 2008

young

in terms of body's metabolic rate:
i'm declared YOUNG!
at age 16 (for a 91 years old)

Sunday, July 6, 2008

I'm.prefect

i'm toe-ing the line of perfection

i must be the perfect daughter
i must be the perfect student
i must be the perfect teacher
i must be the perfect pianist
i must be the perfect person
i must be the perfect maid
i must be the perfect girl
i must be the superwoman

what if...
one day you realised... ...
i have not gotten into the top university
i have undesireable disgusting habits
i have no flare for doing house chores
i have horrible attitudes, bad temper
i have fallen far beyond expectations
i have sucidal/murderous thoughts
i have the worst piano skills
i have absolutely no brains
i have stagnant spritual life
i have a non-christian mate... ....

everything that holds the facade
will shatter into a thousand pieces

it is so called a place where people
FORGIVE AND FORGET
but no, honesty i dont think they do.
people expect you to be the '万能膏'
they name it, at fingers snap,
you are to produce it, perfect.
they do not allow mistakes,
they say they wont laugh,
but they do, even if it was
the slightest tumble,
they wait for your fall to laugh.
they say they have forgotten,
but they have not.

everything is 'they say'
but which is reflected by their actions?





-apparent-

Saturday, July 5, 2008

grace

(my mother and i came home after dinner
i forgot to bring my keys and card out)

mum: gosh! i forgot the lock the metal gate!
me: mother! doi whats the matter with you?
mum : (smiles apologetically)
me: good thing the person is you, not me,
if not i will get scolding from you,
at least you wont get it from me.
(in the house)
mum: oh my keys are on the table!
me: thank goodness! if you locked the door
we will have to sit outside and wait for a* pek
(my dad, he's gone to m'sia, coming back on mon)
to come home, but even then, his keys are at home too!


-God's Grace. He sees-

Friday, July 4, 2008

promise

[i went back to nanyang to collect my cert]

pio: if you get into MFA,
remember to give me your name card
me: that will take some years
you will wait for my news right?
pio: yup, sure, dont forget
me: handphone no. will not change?
pio: yup, and try to visit me more often
some time soon, before the year ends.




-wait for me!-

错过?

流星划过天际,我错过了许愿,
浪花拍上演时,我错过了祝福,
故事讲了一遍,我错过了聆听,
人生只有一回,我错过了什么?

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

sujects of interest

art,
jazz,
classical music,
science fiction,
computer,
drawing/painting,
spiritual matters,
meditation,
handicraft,
writing, (oh so <3 it!)
strategic games,
politics (ss political science!)

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

mirror.mirror

on the wall... tell me, tell me... ...

i stared at the reflection in the silver coating,
an unfamiliar face plastered across it,
giving away no sign of youthfulness.
only the pale skin tone,
those sunken cheeks,
chipped lifeless lips...
'smile' seems like it has never made its
way onto this foreign sovereignty.

i see nothing more,
but a 91... ....



-haggard-