interlocking circles

because Ms Jean wants me the upload them, so here they are.

but rather i would say, because we finally made them,

after going through much together,

so there is a need to show them off a little.

his ring : in.God.i'm.possible + Joanne

her ring : LOVE overcomes all things + Marcus

may that when the boyfriend meets any trying time in life,

he holds on to the Lord that never fails him.

’我靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能！’

may that in times when the girlfriend finds that their relationship is on rocks,

she will remember how they made in through all those that came before,

and be encouraged that they will walk through it hand in hand

immersed

i am really immersed in His grace and blessings!

i ought to make a testimony of how Great my Lord is!

you know, this sem has been one of the most challenging sem.

i got one of the most irresponsible profs in my 5 sems in SMU,

i took 2 cores, 2 lgsts, thinking they were a good mix of difficulty,

but i was so wrong, each made me weary to such a great extend,

and well, having to juggle between study and relationship,

that proves to be the most challenging of all!

and of course, not forgetting my target this sem.

all these just made the sem less than easy going!

i remembered how i trembled after my ethics, and twc exam,

how i feared so much that i will fail them.

i recalled the day after my last paper, and the release of my twc grades,

how my dear boy tried to console me that everything will be fine,

but deep down, that fear nobody could ease.

i looked at the target setting table that i wrote,

how i hated to look at it because i might fall way below.

i worried till my heart and soul begun to wilt.

then that night in Medan,

i asked the preacher who share a room with me,

'how do i trust God?'

'Just take faith and throw away your logic,

He works in ways man's logic can never fathom'

that replied, i kept it in my heart and i did just that.

i prayed day and night about it whenever i could.

the days and weeks that followed,

i locked fear up in the deepest dungeon of my heart,

and welcomed faith and hope to be my guests.

i opened my heart, and happily busied

with church Christmas celebration preparation.

OASIS was meant to release our results last Friday,

but it was postponed till today.

i can still feel my heart pounding hard,

i can still hear my voice inside,

just saying 'Thank God, you listened to my prayers'

words cannot describe how much gratitude i have,

all i know, is i must share this amazing God with you!

not only did He helped me survive this semester,

He showed me if i trust Him,

and if what i want is what He pleases,

He gave it to me.

I hit my target,

and i got a decent grade for Coy law

to continue my 2nd major.

i have experienced this wonderful God again and again,

He never fails me, and i am blessed in His plan.

i urge you to open your heart to Him,

and experience this God in your life today!

dream bag

this balenciaga handbag totally makes me crazy over them!

i've been talking about getting a new bag for months,

and i FINALLY got a Mel look alike!!!

HAPPINESS!!

(at the price of my passport, wow how great is that!)

roadmap

i should know the way back so well,

that it is at the tips of my fingers,

since i've been here so many times,

... ... but no,

each time i stand at this end of the journey,

i am lost all over again

and i wonder how to find my way back.

wont you hold my hand and guild me

back to where happiness lives?

maybe you want to,

but i think,

we all have to find our own way back,

by ourselves.

get the roadmap!

don't get lost again!

silence

you know, all my life,

people tell me, 'you do this, you do that,

you cant do this, you cant do that.'

nobody really ask me how i feel inside.

i tell them to myself.

maybe its because they tried asking,

but in vein, so they gave up asking,

and soon, no one listens.

i talk to myself.

i hear other people talk,

i hear other people laugh,

its a world so silent to me,

i hardly hear my voice,

i hear them all the time,

because they talk to me.

i don't know how i feel,

every-time i feel sick inside,

i just hug my hippos,

they listen to me weep,

they dry my tears for me,

i find solace in their silence.

all these while,

i've forgotten how to tell you how i feel.

maybe it matters,

maybe it does not.

but i think it makes no difference,

i have long forgotten how to feel.

even if i do,

they are locked up in the dusty attics of my heart.

silence,

my silence,

they tell you everything,

everything you ought to know.

don't try to understand,

because neither do i.

eyeliner

because i was a little bored since my parents weren't home yet,

so i dug around for my mum's eyeliner,

which she used as a brow-liner instead,

but never-mind that.

i starting doing what a girl should do;

trying to put on some make-up,

and it was... ...

disastrous!

my hands failed to listen to my command,

and i draw incomplete lines,

that i had to re-do the fill the gaps in,

and the result was;

a thick rugged line above and below my lashes.

oh smoky eyes!

i look more like so demon than pretty girl.

but anyway, at least i could say,

i ever did tried putting on some eyeliner!

anyway, it was a hiccup of entertainment for me (:

dear God,

Dear God,

When I’m scared, will you hold my hand?

~ age 4

stumble over this prayer while i was doing a little image research on Google.

it makes me stop for a long long time.

there are many moments in life,

that we held on to our comfort blanket,

and we feared.

i was not exception.

i fear, constantly,

of many things.

as i grow older, i fear more,

and this fear eats into the faith that i should have in Him,

i began to lose sight of His almighty-ness.

this period of time,

its like those all over again.

its no longer fear of the dark like when i was little,

but the same fear of not doing well,

not meet up to expectations again.

not those set by those around me,

but my the me inside.

i am at the verge,

i realised worrying, fearing, is no solution.

i asked my preacher roomie one day,

'how do i have faith in Him?'

and her reply,

'throw away logic,

He works in ways,

man's logic can never fathom.'

i think that is the best advice given.

i'm throwing away logic,

and just trusting,

taking faith.

if you are in such weariness just like me,

throw away logic,

pick up faith!

pick up hope!

because,

EVERYTHING is possible in Him!

let Him hold your hands.

nerdy

ok, so the boyfriend's all packed up to battle his exams,

while i am here about to surrender to my grades,

that are to be released soon.

so the wait is long and i must as well do something that i like,

and its such irony, i realized.

social science, is a course about reading

and more reading, and endless readings,

that finishing them would be too faraway a price for most.

they never fail to make me wanna throw them out,

but guess what,

i'm so glued to reading now while i wait for love to finish his exams

that i have forgotten that TV used to be my best friend,

and Google and Facebook used to be an everyday guest.

i guess, at the end of the day, i love reading,

be it boring academic papers,

or long long biographies,

or must-read classics,

or interesting novels,

i love them all,

just the same.

***

talking about reading,

it reminds me that i wanna get a new pair of specs soon!

i'm wearing a half-brimmed black specs,

i think want to get a full-brimmed black specs.

nerdy to the max, but i believe,

i'll still look chic in them!

marshmallow

plain marshmallows,

chocolate-filled marshmallows,

grape flavoured marshmallows,

all these are the common flavours of marshmallows

that we can check out at the counter.

but, what about lemon-filled marshmallows?!?!

oishiiiiii!!!

i happened to chanced by a pack of

lemon-filled marshmallows

while shopping with Ms Jean at Muji today.

gosh! its awesome!

the light refreshing taste of lemon first tint my mouth

as my tongue twirl itself around the little sponge of joy,

then, with a light squeeze on the pale yellow marsh,

woots, lemon fillings oozed out and

floods my mouth with endless refreshing taste of lemon!

oh such divine lemon marshmallows!!!!

only for $1.90 at MUJI!!!

get them now!!!

fast-forward in time

yesterday, i had my plans changed 5-6 times, i was so pissed off, but thanks to my lovely one, he never fails to paint a beautiful smile on my face. because the person who has finished all her exams has the right to being a little high, a little less sane than normal, i was back to being my hysteric self once again. in the car on the way home, i think i must be too happy or something, i ended up singing ‘贺新年' like nobody's business. i know he doesn't like hearing it, because his exams aren't over yet and here i am fast-forwarding time to next year. but nonetheless, he still sang along to add into the fun. anyway, he seems to love the song more than me now and he is singing them even in the messages he send me! so here's the lyrics for you:

賀新年　祝新年　新年哪　年連年　爆竹聲聲催人想幼年 
賀新年　祝新年　新年哪　年連年　歲月悠悠光陰如箭 
回首往事如煙　痛苦辛酸　寄望從今萬事如願 
賀新年　祝新年　新年哪　年連年　願大家都過個太平年

you know, i think its just a Christmas thing for me. every time the Christmas bells begin to ring, i dream of lunar new year's coming, and i singing new year songs instead of Christmas carols.