asking and receiving, asked and giving

i have just gotten my first day from my first job since commencement from smu. its not a large sum, but at least, i still can give my parents a portion of it to show my appreciation for them brining me up. mum's so happy when she received it because she used to be the one giving me my monthly allowance, and now, she is getting it from me! then i gave it to dad as well, and he was too shy to accept it, until mum said, just take it, its her gratitude to you. only then, he accepted it and was overjoyed, because finally, its no longer someone asking him, 'pek, can give me money?!?'

maybe this signifies a new phase of life. a departure from asking, and receiving, into a new phase of asked, and give. maybe, adulthood really starts here, not at 21. i guess, its a time to slow down my steps and look at my parents, and realised, they have aged, its time for me to take care of them. soon, i will be married, maybe moving out of the house with my future husband, by then, what will be going through their minds? i cannot stop thinking about this, especially since marriage, and applying for a flat has been the topic that we never failed to talk about over meal times.

life, this moment, i realised, its slipping by too fast. SLOW DOWN... i wish, but HURRY!!! because i am too eager to get married. man. tsk tsk.