trust

'I TRUST YOU'

is a better compliment than

'I Love You'

because,

you may not always trust the person you love,

but,

you can always will always love the person you trust'

how true and sweet these words are, but they never come from you. how can you say you love me when your trust in me is so stingy. where can i find happiness from someone who holds me close to him but doubt my heart. in those instances, we were so close, yet we were miles apart. who am i to you? what am i to you?

in this pursuit, i lost myself. i looked through the reflection in your eyes and wonder who is it that you are seeing? who is this that is immersing in your love? what is it of this reflection that captures your love? was it me? or was it the gratification that you find solace in?

where can i find consolation in your words? or are they mere words said to mask how you know you cant give me your trust? were they said just pacify the naive me? why tell me you would consider the escape route out of this hurting when you know you want to prove me wrong? why wont you just say it straight and simple? din't it ever cross your mind how that will put across to me? don't you realize how much disappointment will engulf me?

this taste of disappointment is so bitter as it holds in my mouth and slowly drip into my heart. i touched my face. but this face is no longer familiar to me. the lines of it all, so odd and so sad.

i'm tired, really.