i wonder?!?

sometimes i really wonder...
this is a love-hate relationship
with Chinese New Year....

every year i wished we celebrate
it in Singapore
but time and again... NO
everytime we see this grandma,
then what about the other one?

isnt that being selfish?
i wonder
you say i should be a role model,
to go up and pay a visit,
but i wonder,
what about you?
are you being too selfish to
always want it your way?
have you not considered others?

or isit me?
who is being selfish?
because of the resentment?
i know by right i should give in
and do as you wish,
but by left...nope,
and in my opinion,
i think either ways are right!

i dont know... Really
HELP ME!