偷懒

我的心，这一刻，多想偷懒！

这是一次次的摧残，蹂躏，

我多想就这样写首决离诗

然后潇洒的悄悄离去，

可是... ...

给我一条出路，告诉我给如何地走！

its just that i need to talk

its not that i am very talkative or so, its not that i have a lot of things to say too, its just that i need to talk, i need to write something. if not this pressure cooker will soon be too suffocating!

i wonder why is handing in 1 out of 2 of my term paper does not give me the elation that i need to boost the energy level for the next paper?

anyway, i just received news that I've gotten my internship. so summer's all stamped out and down with for me. i wonder is it a good or bad thing? when you don't have it, you want it so badly, but when you are given it, you find that you really don't want it after all!

please just ignore me.

i am bursting!

BYE BYE!!!

50 things

here is an excerpt from some blog that i thought is pretty enlightening for all those who are struggling with university life and are not enjoying any bit of it (myself included)

Here goes...

1. Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.
2. Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.
3. In college more than ever before, songs will attach themselves to memories. Every month or two, make a mix cd, mp3 folder, whatever - just make sure you keep copies of these songs. Ten years out, they'll be as effective as a journal in taking you back to your favorite moments.
4. Take naps in the middle of the afternoon with reckless abandon.
5. Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you're nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.
6. If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don't let people tell you that you "should be more organized" or that you "should plan better." Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure - so I always procrastinated... and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.
7. At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn't do so well on the final, but I haven't thought about psych since 1993. I've thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son's godfather) at least once a month ever since.
8. Become friends with your favorite professors. Recognize that they can learn from you too - in fact, that's part of the reason they chose to be professors.
9. Carve out an hour every single day to be alone. (Sleeping doesn't count.)
10. Go on dates. Don't feel like every date has to turn into a relationship.
11. Don't date someone your roommate has been in a relationship with.
12. When your friends' parents visit, include them. You'll get free food, etc., and you'll help them to feel like they're cool, hangin' with the hip college kids.
13. In the first month of college, send a hand-written letter to someone who made college possible for you and describe your adventures thus far. It will mean a lot to him/her now, and it will mean a lot to you in ten years when he/she shows it to you.
14. Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, "what can I learn from this person?" More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.
15. All-nighters are entirely overrated.
16. For those of you who have come to college in a long-distance relationship with someone from high school: despite what many will tell you, it can work. The key is to not let your relationship interfere with your college experience. If you don't want to date anyone else, that's totally fine! What's not fine, however, is missing out on a lot of defining experiences because you're on the phone with your boyfriend/girlfriend for three hours every day.
17. Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as "in person.") Often someone's facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.
18. Take risks.
19. Don't be afraid of (or excited by) the co-ed bathrooms. The thrill is over in about 2 seconds.
20. Wednesday is the middle of the week; therefore on wednesday night the week is more than half over. You should celebrate accordingly. (It makes thursday and friday a lot more fun.)
21. Welcome failure into your lives. It's how we grow. What matters is not that you failed, but that you recovered.
22. Take some classes that have nothing to do with your major(s), purely for the fun of it.
23. It's important to think about the future, but it's more important to be present in the now. You won't get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.
24. When you're living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents' money. If you're going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a "valuable social experience."
25. Don't be afraid to fall in love. When it happens, don't take it for granted. Celebrate it, but don't let it define your college experience.
26. Much of the time you once had for pleasure reading is going to disappear. Keep a list of the books you would have read had you had the time, so that you can start reading them when you graduate.
27. Things that seem like the end of the world really do become funny with a little time and distance. Knowing this, forget the embarassment and skip to the good part.
28. Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.
29. No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You're going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can't imagine, across all fronts. You can't learn if you're closed off.
30. If you need to get a job, find something that you actually enjoy. Just because it's work doesn't mean it has to suck.
31. Don't always lead. It's good to follow sometimes.
32. Take a lot of pictures. One of my major regrets in life is that I didn't take more pictures in college. My excuse was the cost of film and processing. Digital cameras are cheap and you have plenty of hard drive space, so you have no excuse.
33. Your health and safety are more important than anything.
34. Ask for help. Often.
35. Half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at any given moment. Way more than half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at some point in the next four years. Get used to it.
36. In ten years very few of you will look as good as you do right now, so secretly revel in how hot you are before it's too late.
37. In the long run, where you go to college doesn't matter as much as what you do with the opportunities you're given there. The MIT name on your resume won't mean much if that's the only thing on your resume. As a student here, you will have access to a variety of unique opportunities that no one else will ever have - don't waste them.
38. On the flip side, don't try to do everything. Balance = well-being.
39. Make perspective a priority. If you're too close to something to have good perspective, rely on your friends to help you.
40. Eat badly sometimes. It's the last time in your life when you can do this without feeling guilty about it.
41. Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.
42. Wash your sheets more than once a year. Trust me on this one.
43. If you are in a relationship and none of your friends want to hang out with you and your significant other, pay attention. They usually know better than you do.
44. Don't be afraid of the weird pizza topping combinations that your new friend from across the country loves. Some of the truly awful ones actually taste pretty good. Expand your horizons.
45. Explore the campus thoroughly. Don't get caught.
46. Life is too short to stick with a course of study that you're no longer excited about. Switch, even if it complicates things.
47. Tattoos are permanent. Be very certain.
48. Don't make fun of prefrosh. That was you like 2 hours ago.
49. Enjoy every second of the next four years. It is impossible to describe how quickly they pass.
50. This is the only time in your lives when your only real responsibility is to learn. Try to remember how lucky you are every day.

Be yourself. Create. Inspire, and be inspired. Grow. Laugh. Learn. Love.

Welcome to some of the best years of your lives.

印章

我情愿相信， 我们都在彼此的心里盖下了印章。
谢谢，因为有你！

nana 姐姐的人生新旅程

yesterday was your birthday party,
today is the eve of your birthday,
tomorrow is your 21th birthday!
***

there are many things that we spend our lives searching for,
and friends is one of the most important people that we are constantly in search of.

there are many things that we grow out as the years go by,
friends is something we will never grow out of.

there are some things in life that we want to hold on forever in this journey,
and friends are one of those most prioritized of them all.

and YOU are the one special one that i will treasure all my life!
***

time flies, its been about 1460 days since fate brought us into each other's life. its been an amazing and exciting journey with you in my life, making every bit of memory more precious than the finest jewel.
***

in the years ahead, may our friendship continue to blossom and mature as we age together. hope that in every chapter of your life, be it big or small, be it happy or sad, be it in health or illness, we are there for each other. to hold our hands and walk through thick and thin!
***

on your becoming 21, just want to let you know once again,
thank you for adding a shin of sparkle in my life,
thank you for always helping me analyse situations,
thank you for putting up with my flicker-mindedness,
and my never ending crazy ideas for your party.
***

once again,
HAPPY 21th BIRTHDAY!!!

the cutesy boy!

today ming shi came to my church, so after her surveys ended, i brought her around introducing her to some little Sunday school kids, and i walked her out after that become making my way back to church again to wait for my parents.

so while waiting...



tiong xin : your mommy go back already! (said that like 2-3 times before i realized he was talking to me)

me : O.o really? where is my mommy?

tiong xin : your mommy go back already!

me: (in half shock) you know who is my mommy?

tiong xin : yes, your mommy go home already!

me : you really know my mommy? she went back already? how does she looks like?

tiong xin : (walked out of the church and looked around ) O.o no more!!!

me : (in amusement) you mean just now that person?

tiong xin : yes!

me : (laughs) awww she is my friend!!! she is not my mommy!!!

tiong xin : isit? (hurry made his way back into church)

tiong xin : you are going home! BYE BYE (many times)




aww Ming Shi!!! (*BIG COMFORTING HUG FOR YOU!!!)


















if you were curious, Tiong Xin is only 4 this year (;

Sonnet 18

Shall I Compare thee to a summers day?
Sonnet 18
William Shakespeare

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed.
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

drawers

i once read somewhere...

friendship is like a drawer,in the little compartments,they are meant for friends who could be 'taken out' and 'use' on different occasions. so this person has drawers that read ; for pigging out, for clubbing, for loans, for partying... ... for the listening ear.

in my friendship drawer, i wonder how many compartments do i have? but 1 thing that i am so sure of, i have 1 special compartment, and it says, 'FOR ALL PURPOSES!' and you know you lovely angels fit into them!