irony

by right...
i should be looking forward to it
i should be so excited to the extend
of dreaming of the day to come
i should be making plans, so many of them

but... ...
everyday i fear
everyday i psycho myself
everyday i choose to occupy every sanity
everyday i pretend i'm still living in january

i feel like i'm back to being a really tiny little kid
taking my first of everything the world has to offer
fearing everything that i come in touch with
like the bubble will burst at my slightest touch

every step i take i fear
get me out of here
bring me back
walk with me!?!